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The conversation between 2 pharmacy and 1 medical students...

Melvin : Eh, when are you going back BP ya?
Me : Most probably this coming Saturday gua...
Yi Jie : Har?!! Melvin, you are from BP also ah? So u know Hendrick la?
Me : He's not from the same school as me and Hendrick la...
Yi Jie : Chew!!~ Must be from a banana school la then..
Melvin : No!! Since when High School becomes a banana school? And I am not a banana, ok? I know how to speak Mandarin!!
Yi Jie : Oh, really? Then speak to me now la.. You look just like a banana la..
Melvin : Wait wait.. I know egg is ji dan (鸡蛋), meat is rou (肉), vege is cai (菜), and rice is fan (饭)!! See?
Yi Jie : Can you like speak in one complete sentence ah?
Melvin : Ok Ok.. listen ya... Wo xi huan chi chao ji dan (我喜欢吃炒鸡蛋)!! Har..
Me and Yi Jie : What?!! Chao ji dan (炒鸡蛋)?!! Haha... Sounds like foul word la..
Melvin : Why? What's wrong? Ok Ok.. I know already... It's zha ji dan (炸鸡蛋)!! Correct?
Yi Jie : Haha.. zha ji dan (炸鸡蛋)?!! Said u like to eat zha dan (炸弹) even better la...
Melvin : Not zha (炸) ah? Then what do u call fry?
Melvin : Eh, faster tell.. What is fry in mandarin la?
Yi Jie : It's called jian (煎) la...
Melvin : Oh ya!! Jian (煎)!! That's the problem la.. that's the problem... jian ji dan (煎鸡蛋)!!!


That's how a future doctor trying hard to prove that he's not a banana... XD Great achievement though!! Hahaha... =P

Sunkist!!!

Ganas Voon was in bright orange polo tee and white pants today. So, when Alicia was about to leave, she bid us farewell. And it goes...

"Bye Bye Pei Ling! Bye Bye Ah Fhern! Bye Bye Xin Yin!" and finally...

"Bye Bye Sunkist!!!"

Wah haha... SUNKIST!!! Good one, Ah Cia!! XD

So this Ganas Voon started to rebutt lo...

"Wear purple said I look like brinjal!! Wear orange said I look like Sunkist!! Luckily I am not in black pants today. If not ma become black tangerine liao??!"

We lagi couldn't stop laughing. So when she finally tak boleh tahan her new fabulous nick, her true ganas self emerged!! Wanted to slap us wor!!! Memang live up to her name...

Ganas wer!!~~~ =P

Touched...

It was 830p.m. Yi Jie and I were on the way home from taekwondo training when I felt my phone vibrating in the bag. So I took my phone out to check on the sms and gasped...

"Ah Bi, there is a flasher in red shirt, red cap and super mini shorts!!! Be careful, k?"

The sms was from my Ah Bi. I thought she was just kidding, and so took my time to reply (which makes me feel kinda bad now). But yes, true enough, my Ah Bi WAS flashed... However, the first thing she did immediately after that was to sms me, and warned me to be careful of that stupid fella. The incident happened at the overhead-bridge and he was heading towards the direction of our university. Ah Bi was afraid that he would bump into us and repeat the same disgraceful act...

Well, maybe to many of u all, that was merely a sms. But it seriously touched my heart... Just imagine.. Ah Bi is a girl.. She must have been traumatised by that incident, or at least frightened maybe. But the first thing that came to her mind, was me... was to sms and warn me about the flahser... was to prevent me from experiencing the same frightening moment... and was to protect me from that disgusting fella...

Thank you so much, my Ah Bi Bi... You are the BESTEST Labby I could ever get in this world... You are so great and loveable!! Feel like hugging u so much right now... I promise that I will TRY to jaga your image more from this moment onwards. Haha... XD Love you deep deep!!! Muacks Muacks!! (sound so much like a lesbo -.-")

Ah Bi's IC

Ah Bi showed me her IC while we were supposed to be studying in the library just now. Guess what? My ah bi actually looks like an Ah Ma with no tooth and she smiles like a kucing!!! Mua Hahaha... XD

And to my dearest Ah Bi who's sitting right opposite me now, I don't think it's necesarry for me to jaga your image lo, since you have never had one before also... Wakaka...XP

《孔雀森林》 读后感

用了不到一天的时间，就把 《孔雀森林》 这本书给读完了。就为了阿亮叔叔的 challenge。。

“诶，我 challenge 你在今晚把 《孔雀森林》 读完！你读完的话我就请你吃冰淇淋！”

说真的，还挺喜欢这本书的。。保持了蔡智恒一贯的水准。至少我本人认为它比藤井树近期的作品好看多了啦。。藤井树，你的 《有个女孩叫Feeling》 的水准去了哪儿啦？

对主角智渊的印象不错，但是却不喜欢他的懦弱与犹豫不决。。。

喜欢荣安的真。。虽然他常闯祸，又有点怪怪的，但是他真的粉口爱！！

喜欢刘玮亭，即使她的出场次数不多。。总觉得她和自己挺像的。。虽然我选的不是老虎。。。



“你在森林里养了好几种动物，有马，牛，羊，老虎，和孔雀。如果有一天你必须离开森林，而且只能带走一种动物，你会带哪一种？”

我选择了马，你呢？



注解：马 = 自由
牛 = 事业
羊 = 爱情
老虎 = 自尊
孔雀 = 金钱

Ku Je Kau Kau

My ah bi brilliantly drew a matchstick man (and she claims that she used to score A for Pendidikan Seni) representing Lemongrassy in Ganas Voon's Christmas card (that she bought for herself, sad-nya~~) during PP2 lecture on NHS Act. Below are the 3 "greetings" she wrote for Ganas Voon...

"Ganas Voon Loves (represented by a heart shape) Chong Chong"

"New hair style!!" (with arrow pointing towards the few lidi standing on top of the matchstick man's head)

"Ku Je Kau Kau!!" (with arrow pointing towards the not-so-fitting pants hanging on the matchstick man's waist)

Yeah, that's my ah bi's Mandarin standard.. She was actually trying to mean 裤子高高, i.e. pants worn till super high up... (-_-")

"Ku Je Kau Kau!!" My Goodness.. Damn funny la... XD

P.S. Lemongrassy is someone who always wears his pants till super high up and just had a new hair cut today and teaches us PP.. His relationship with Ganas Voon? Me and Ah Bi postulated it to be NOT just as simple as tutor-tutee... Ngek ngek ngek.. XP

cANcER DrUgs pRoMOte cELL prOlifErAtIOn???

Compiling Group A and B results for DD3 report now... Dots.. most of the results actually show that AG1478, a cancer chemotherapy drug which is supposed to destroy cancerous cell, actually promote growth.. (-_-") what is this la???

Bravo!! Did a statistical paired T-test to compare the normal result, i.e. allies with the theoretical value one, with a result that show 300% cell proliferation. Know what? The T-test proves that the difference is insignificant!!! (><") Fan shu!!!!! (番薯,i.e. potato)

Cancer drugs promote cell growth?? T_T

Ban!!!~~

Below is the conversastion between three pharmacists with a "promising" future...

Me : Eh, why group B ppl never come for PP Case Law Tutorial one har?
Ah Bi : Duh!! Of course lah!! They are having it in SR6 instead ma. Ban!!~~~
Ganas Voon : Haha.. Ban!!~~~
Ah Bi : Eh, you realize or not? Actually when u say Ban!!~~~, can hear the gema one lo. U try and see..
Me + Ganas Voon : Ban!!~~~
Ah Bi : See?? Very fun, right?
Ganas Voon : Haha.. Eh, can u both stop being so childish ah? 21 years old already le...
Me : What? I am still 20 only, ok? Most-Kissable-Lips, Ban!!~~~
Ah Bi : Har? What? Got ppl voted her for Most-Kissable Lips ah? Aiyo.. that person must be blind one la.. Ban!!~~~ (while shaking her head)
Ah Bi : (suddenly) Eh eh!!! Actually if u do it while shaking your head, u get more shiok out of it leh!! Haha.. Seriously!! Try try!!
Me + Ganas Voon : Ban!!~~~ (shook our heads violently)
Me : Haha.. The effect of gema is even bigger now leh.. Ok ok.. Let's do it together now.. one, two, three...
Ah Bi + Ganas Voon + Me : Ban!!~~~ (heads shaking violently...)

Well, if u wish to be as smart as them, now do this together with me...

BAN!!!~~ (don't forget to shake ur head violently...)

Shiok, right? So, do u feel like a genius now?? XD

P.S. : Ban = 笨 in Cantonese

SoMEbOdY oNlinE pLS!!~~~

Yawn~~~ it's 2:36a.m. in the morning and I am looking at my MSN friend's list, hoping that one of the red little icons may just suddenly turn green, and nudge me for I didnt respond to his or her appearance quick enough. Too bad, the long list of red icons remains and I have to settle with writing blog.

I did log in around the same time yesterday, but I was so tired that I knocked off on the computer table while reading my Labby's bulletin post, "How to win an argeument effectively". No drooling of saliva, but guess it would not have been so if that post was "How to win Brad Pitt's heart effectively" instead. Haha... XD Ah Bi Bi, I'm not saying that ur post was a boring one ya. Was simply too tired. In fact, I just read through it all over again and am thinking of how to apply it when stupiak Mou Mou tries to insult us again next time. Ngek Ngek... =P

Har.. still facing a list of red icons. Must be a retribution for not replying Wern's and Liang's msg last nite. Aiyo, not my fault leh... Was busy entertaining Mr. Zhou Gong in my dreams ma. I only woke up to see their blinking msges, and all I did was pressing Alt+F4 to all the windows. Couldn't even bother to apologize nor check on the time. Hehe... I just off the light, climbed onto the bed, intended to cover myself with quilt in the air-cond room, only to find myself and the quilt lying in the same position when Mum woke me up this morning. Geng leh? Hehe... paisay la... not purposely didnt wanna reply msg de lo... =P

Yawn~~~ still, nobody has online yet le... and writing this whole blog of crap has made me super sleepy suddenly... Keke... Mr. Zhou Gong, here I come!!! Nitez, everybody!!! XD

与 F.I.R. 的亲密接触

为了 F.I.R. 《飞行部落》 的这场签唱会，我老早就在10月8号那天，在众朋友的陪同下前往金河广场大厅，以我较早前购买的《飞行部落》正版CD （真的是正版的哦～ 以我来说，还真少见哪！ XD）换取免费的入门票，顺便逛街！原本一张专辑只能换取4张入门票的，可是朋友们都纷纷兴致勃勃地向我表示了他们想去的热忱。好的东西本来就是要大家分享的吗，而既然现场换票的人可谓少之又少，换票亭的负责人又没记录，我，康雯和克丽斯丁便在不同的时间以同样的CD上前去换票。就这样我们骗回了总数12张的票。哈哈。。。不错neh？我们这三个骗子也都在当天分别有新衣进帐哦！＝P “你这个骗子骗子骗子骗子骗子～～”

但是人算还真是不如天算哪！从那一天开始，我阔气的朋友们竟然一个接一个地送我飞机，简直多到可以开个飞机场了！结果到了10月13号当天，只剩下可怜的我，康雯，怡洁和子康。。。唉，或许还真是报应不爽呀！于是，我们这4个可怜人便一起乘坐子康的车，从IMU出发到Bukit Jalil Amphitheatre。其实他们三个是陪我这个太子爷去读书的。真够义气！

哇赛！那个人潮还真不是盖的耶！人是多到。。。我们其实已经提早到场了，可是还是排了老久老久才轮到我们进场呢！欧麦高！那天换票的人不是只有小猫两三只而已的吗？依稀记得两年前F.I.R.在金河广场舞台为第一张同名专辑举办签名会时，我也在场。那时即不需要换票，人潮也没那么的恐怖啊～我还是在现场现买现签的呢！当时只用了差不多5分钟的时间就轮到我了。今时今日的F.I.R.已今非昔比了。老实说，看见他们的成长，我其实感到挺开心与欣慰的。。。＝）

结果，轮到我们进场时，前面老早进了场的观众已挡完我们的视线了。只有平日有打篮球的子康是看得清舞台上的状况的。我们这三个女生只得踮高了脚趾拼命地往舞台上瞄。真是伤心的jiek。。。不仅如此，稍后还来了个不识趣的大只佬，硬是挤到我们三个正在狂踮脚趾的女生前面，把我们余下的那么一丁点儿视线也都遮蔽了！差点没把我气死！我已经给了几次非常明显的“暗示”了，可是他始终还是无动于衷！不只是真没听见，还是装聋作哑。幸好，人潮稍微移动了一些，我们还可以勉强地从人头之间的缝隙看见舞台。

虽然是同属华纳，但主办当局也不需要持续地播放东方神奇的MTV吧？我们是来看F.I.R的喂。。。耶！终于F.I.R.的MTV出现了，全场不断地尖叫，并大声合唱。可是，哎，怎么来来去去就只有那首《飞行部落》呢？咦？终于换歌了！竟然又是东方神奇的MTV！（差点没晕倒。。。）有必要那么强势地宣传吗？喂，请问东方神奇的专辑在本地的销售量是不是真的那么烂？(-_-") 观众们都接二连三地sien掉，当《飞行部落》的前奏再次响起时，不管主持人卓慧勤再怎么地鼓吹，观众们也都懒得合唱了。。。

好不容易捱到了8：30PM，在特别嘉宾，本地的绝对Superstar黄俊源演唱完毕以后，F.I.R.终于隆重登场了！带来了好几首耳熟能详的歌曲，让我们都乐坏了！而阿飞和阿沁也非常听话地在演唱《天天夜夜》时，在一片“牵手！牵手！“的声浪下，签手了！哇哈哈。。。唱完了安哥曲《Lydia》过后，签名会也正式开始了！由于挤功超烂，我竟然排到了人龙的尾端！救命啊～康雯，怡洁和子康选择上车等我，边吹冷气边闲聊。而我呢，简直热爆了！还被挤到像沙丁鱼！不过，一看见有空隙，我就挤进去。想不到，不一会儿，我已经上了舞台了！哇哈哈。。。

一向来都对会弹钢琴的男生情有独钟，所以认为建宁老师真是帅呆了！自从上次的签名会之后，我就觉得他不但亲切，头发也飘逸到一个程度！哈哈。。。不过，当晚他似乎有点耍酷噢。握手时虽然和上次一样有力道，但是却面无表情，只微微点了点头。或许他累了吧，但是却让我对他的印象打了一点折扣哦。还好，小小只的阿飞还是一样的亲切友善！握手时不但有力道，还以非常诚恳的眼神望着我，并给予我一个灿烂迷人的笑容！开心死我了！哈哈。。。说真的，她本人真的比上节目和拍平面照时，漂亮得多了！美人儿一个！嘻嘻。。。而当晚，秀了一手好琴与好歌艺的阿沁，也让我觉得，他比以前帅多了！哈哈。。。或许是因为他比以前健硕了吧，看起来没那么地苍白憔悴。握手时，还是一样有力道，并对我说了声“谢谢！”。 ＝）

还记得上次，我待到签名会结束后才离去，并目睹了F.I.R.在歌迷的包围下带着微笑离去时，粗鲁的保安人员是如何在驱散歌迷时，一个不小心大力地以他整个粗大的胳膊直接撞在瘦小的阿飞的头上！阿飞当场痛得面部表情扭曲，眼泪都快要流出来了！当时，包括我在内的歌迷们都心疼地惊呼出声，可是保安人员并没有因此而停下脚步来关心阿飞的伤势，只是不断地开路。不一会儿，F.I.R.就被护送出场了。。。这令我非常地不爽哦！但是这一次，由于人数众多，我实在没有办法等到签名会结束之后才离去。再说我也不想浪费在车上等我的朋友们的宝贵时间。所以，拿到签名之后，我便满心欢喜地往停车场的方向走去了。我好想从此以后都不再洗手了！！嘻嘻。。。

总之，F.I.R.你们好棒！！～～～

我哭了。。。

九月七号的我，哭了。。。

已经不记得我最后一次掉泪是什么时候的事情了。。。因为哭，真的很难。。。无论我多难受，眼泪始终留不下来。。。这并不是件好事，也不值得我骄傲。不能哭的感觉，有时真的让我痛不欲生。。。一整颗心就好像要爆裂开来了，却始终找不到一个抒发的管道。。。真恨不得有人能拿一把锋刃的刀子，直插入我的心窝。。。这样至少心就不会再那么疼了。。。

我也不晓得昨天的我，为何那么地脆弱。。。更难过的时刻，我都潇洒地在不撒一滴泪的情况下经历过了。。。但，昨天晚上，眼泪却情不自禁地掉了下来。。。我真的好难过。。。好难过。。。难过得直到目前为止，我的情绪都始终平复不来。。。在人前，我企图装作若无其事。。。应该没人察觉到我的不同吧。。。大家或许都认为我只是压力太大了吧。。。是吗？

也许不愉快的事情，纠缠了我一整天。。。也许考试与作业的压力，让我忙得透不过气来。。。也许身边出现了个让我非常失望的人。。。也许人生的无奈让我觉得束手无策。。。也许我真的是个很失败的人。。。也许离乡背井的孤寂包围了我。。。也许我太放肆我的忧虑了。。。也许在夜深人静的鼓吹下，我开始胡思乱想了。。。也许我太在乎了。。。也许我恰好在听着伤感的歌曲吧。。。也许。。。也许。。。

我。。。哭了。。。

StUpIAk liBrARy dReSsCOdE

Yay! It's a holiday for P105 today and I was in super good mood. Decided to come library to study for the upcoming Biopharm class test on Monday. Wanted to dress in a most comfortable way so that I could study. So I wore a white-coloured collar shirt with jeans. Not too formal, nor too casual. Then, I proceeded to the library.

Who knows before I could even enter the library, I was stopped by the librarian.

"Excuse me, no jeans in the library until 5p.m. onwards."

Honestly, I was mentally prepared for this already. Told him I had no class today and I came to the library to study only. He insisted that he was just following the rules and that I would not be permitted to enter the library unless I changed into a more formal pants. Well, I was not in the mood to quarrel with him and I knew that it was not his fault that the stupiak dresscode had been set this way.

So, I went back home to change into a cargo pants, of which I seriously do not think is any more formal than the dark-colored jeans I was wearing previously. By the time I went back to the library, I was sweating like hell already. Weather super hot, man!!

I went into the library straight and purposely asked the librarian whether my attire was ok or not. Then, in a friendly way, I told him,

"Sir, no offence, but I just want to let you know that it's seriously not practical to apply this dresscode to someone who is not having class. I just want to feel comfortable so that I can study better..."

"I know I know... I know it's not practical, but I have to follow the rules. Otherwise, my boss would scold me for allowing students to enter the library in jeans."

See? Even the librarian also agreed with me! Stupiak IMU! Why can't you be more flexible with your stupiak so-called dresscode? Wasted so much of my time! What's the point of looking smart and professional but not being able to study well and then fail our exams? Do you know how uncomfortable it is to study in formal shirt and formal pants? Eat shit la!

Am so gonna voice this out if there is a suggestion box in the library... Too bad there isn't one... Again, STUPIAK!!!

Hahaha...... (Stress-induced insane laughter) =P

ChUA pEi LiNg

Got this from Friendster bulletin board. Hehe... Frenz, come come... Check out what meaning your name carries. I wonder if the analysis of mine is an accurate one. Kaka... XD

A- You like to curse alot (Do I?)
B- You like people
C- You're wild and crazy
D- You have one of the best personalities ever
E- Damn good kisser (Haha... I wonder... XD)
F- People adore you
G- You never let people tell you what to do
H- You have a very good personality and looks
I- You have a fine ass (Hmm......)
J- Everyone loves you
K- You are really silly
L- you live to have fun
M- one to have fun
N- You are dead sexy (Kakaka... Yeah, I hope so, too =P)
O- You are one of the best in bed
P- You are popular with all types of people
Q- You are a hypocrite
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with
T- You're loyal to those you love
U- You really like to chill
V- You are not judgemental
W- You are very broad minded
X- You never let people tell you what to do
Y- one of the best damn bf/gf ne one could askfor
Z- Always ready.

pAtTErN MoRE tHAn bADmIntON (-_-"')

Oh my goodness... 欧阳兔 actually sang after his lecture today. His normal day lame jokes are already "cold" enough to make me shiver on my seat. Today I almost couldnt resist the temptation to cover my ears with hands when he started singing his "Arrhythmia Song for P1/05". All my hair were standing on 90 degrees with respect to my skin le...

"Tachycardia He... He... (x2)

Bila Nadinya Lebih Dari Seratus

Bradycardia He... He... (x2)

Bila Nadinya Tak Sampai Enam Puluh"

Thanks to his "sweet" voice, I managed to gain life experience of both tachycardia and palpitation. Too bad he stopped just a bit too early. If not, I would be able to describe to you the sensation of having an episode of cardiac arrest as well...

Seriously tak tahan his ham sap "嘿嘿嘿。。。" laughter. Forced us to "volunteer" for IMU Open Day somemore. Come on, man! Is that considered "volunteering" somemore? Dots...

Yeah, and I had to evaluate him as a 7/10 lecturer for the sake of P1/05's results... No worries... I kept my 良心 in fridge already before coming for lecture today... (-_-"')

EtHiCs?? mY fOoT!!!

"Medicines are not ordinary items of commerce"
Discuss this assertion in the context of pharmacist's role in the supply and use of medicines: what should be the pharmacist's ethical stance?

Any idea on how to write this so-called ethics essay? Nah... beats me! The only thing good about this essay is that quoting of reference is not necessary. So, proudly, I managed to finish crapping everything within 3-4 days, though now if you ask me, I seriously can't recall anything that I had written down. Neither do I think I have become more "ethical" upon completion of this essay. It simply makes me a better crapper. Haha...

Anyway, at least it makes me realized that I had lost my Code of Ethics, as well as my Practice Guidance. Didnt even know that we are supposed to have them since the first day of sememster 4. No wonder I was always so blur when Mr. David Chong mentioned about them, while my frens kept nodding their heads. Until now, I still dunno whether I had lost them or I was not given one in the first place ("Yong2 ge1 man3 tai3" qtd. Pampers, 2006).

In the end, I decided to photocopy from Yi Jie and if not because of this stupiak essay, I would not even care to look through the Code of Ethics once. Haha... future pharmacist!!! (again, qtd. Pampers, 2006)

And to all the Mei Chees, I did NOT even add in one PICTURE into my essay, ok? Got the front cover one long time ago and it just happens to be my habit to put a picture on the front cover of each of my project so that it does not look so empty ma. BLUEK!!! (> <"')

Are You Healthy?

Attended Dr. Hera Lukman's lecture on Becoming Ill today. Haha... It was quite interesting... In fact, it was the only Pharmacy Practice lecture of which I found interesting. Haha... guess that should be a big compliment to Dr. Hera Lukman... Haha... And yeah, Yi Jie, I do agree with you. This hot chic from Vancouver, Canada is indeed a liang moi. Am jealous of her height la, hahaha...

Anyway, according to Dr. Hera Lukman, a healthy subject should meet all the following criteria, i.e. :-

1. Never drink coffee

2. Have half an hour of vigorous exercises at least three times a week

3. Have at least 400g of vegetables and fruits everyday

Haha... too bad I meet neither of these criteria. So I AM SUPER UNHEALTHY actually!!! Haha... I need coffee to keep me awake at night to study. Although I do play volleyball and go for Taekwondo training from time to time, but I am not sure whether running away from the volleyball and strengthless kicking are considered as vigorous exercise or not. Haha... Hey, I have my daily meals in the canteen la. Eating so much vegetables and fruits will cost me a bomb, man! Unless somebody go persuade that Hua Za ge and Pak Cik Amir to charge less and give more vegetables and fruits to us next time le. Hahaha... =P

MeGASaLeS!!!!!~~~

OH NO... I spent so much yesterday... Shopping spree... Went Mid Valley together with Khang Wern, Yi Jie and Su Miin. Look at what I bought yesterday...

ELLE milk-coloured pants @ RM44.70

U2 collar-tee @ RM24.50

MOMOE sleeveless top @ RM19.50

RADIOACTIVE small handbag @ RM10.30

Reebok short pants @ RM25.00

i=am t-shirt @ RM9.90

Total = RM133.90

At the same time of feeling happy for being able to get all these items at relatively reasonable prices, I felt super guilty as they made me spent RM100 more than what I am supposed to spend this month. Haiyo... and then hor... the Elle pants is slightly too long le... gotta wait till I go back BP and send it to the taylor in Sakura then only I can start wearing it without literally "mopping the floor"... Haha... and after searching through my wardrobe once I reached home last night, I realized that I have no suitable top to go with the pants. Bravo!!! Haha... was a bit too rash when I bought the pants le... Well... Never mind though... Because that gives me another galmour reason to go shopping again... To get a suitable top to match the pants ma... =P

Aiyoyo... gotta eat less to save more money le... Am seriously broke!!! Any kind-hearted ppl out there willing to sponsor me some food or money maybe?!! Kaka... XD

DAMN!! Caffeine Effect...

Gosh... I hope there is nothing wrong with me...

Was supposed to go Khang Wern's place to stay overnight yesterday, since it's been a long while I last had a pillow talk with her. Too bad there was something troubling her and she insisted me not to go over for she didnt want to affect my mood. So, I decided to brew a cup of coffee and stay up late to study. Have almost lost contact with my fellow bookworm frens already. Kaka... XD

Had strong determination to study actually. Who knows that stupiak caffeine started to bother me again. Could feel my "thump thump" beating super fast as tachycardia takes over... I soon found myself not being able to concentrate on my studies. Part of the reasons being my caffeine-induced-imagination that had started to run wild. Tried to control it but I just couldnt... Forced myself to sleep but the stupiak caffeine had prevented me from doing so...

Sitting on the chair, I just couldnt stop thinking about that particular matter... I kept bombarding myself with questions in my mind...

"What's the possibility?"

"Is it really true?"

"So what my frens said are true?"

"Am I running away from reality?"

"What happend to my own principles?"

"Have I been confused by others?"

"Why am I confused?"

"Is it because of caffeine that I am thinking so much now?"

"Why this matter does not seem to bother me on normal days?"

"Did I take things too seriously?"

"Is it because of the unpleasant experience lately that causes me to

bother so much about this matter?"

"Maybe I am just not too good in handling it?"

"Maybe I need someone to help me to sort this out?"

"But I seriously do not want it to happen! How?"

Well... you see? All these questions kept jumping into my mind whenever I tried to focus on the book. I was carried away by trying to find an answer for each of the questions...

"LEAVE ME ALONE!!! I WANNA STUDY AND I WANNA SLEEP!!!"

Most of the time when I drink coffee, this stupiak caffeine effect not only leads to tachycardia and extraordinary excitement, but uncontrollable mind as well. I would start talking nonsense and at extremely fast speed somemore. During my Taylor's days, even lecturers could tell when I took coffee from my unusual behaviours. Haha... Amazing, right?

I finally managed to sleep at 5a.m. in the morning. I am glad to find out that today I have not been thinking about that particular matter anymore ever since I woke up. Hehe... Therefore, in conclusion, it's should be the stupiak caffeine that had driven me abnormal last night gua... Or, was it? Hmm... Yi Jie and Lu Yi always hate to hear this "gua gua" sound. Kaka... (^O^)

So frenz, if any of these days you find me to be different from my usual self, yeah... you are most probably right. I have been on caffeine again. Haha... Give myself three dots... (-_-"')

Who Is/Are More Charming?

The 2nd IMU Cares Charity Taekwondo Championship is just around the corner, but we are still in the process of raising fund. Sigh... close to desperate already la... No one has yet showed us any interest of sponsoring this event le... Even big company like Braun Medical Supplies rejected us immediately, before I could even finish my sentences.

"Sorry, I don't think we have budget for that..."

So, today me, Yi Jie, Hui Ming, Joan and Yeang Wee went to Sri Petaling to ask for sponsorship from shop to shop. Sadly, the response was very discouraging. Most of them either told us that they couldnt make any decision as their bosses were not around, or rejected us without hesitation. Some never even heard of IMU before!!! Goodness... and IMU is just like less than 1km from their shops only. I wonder how much they have already earned from IMU students yet they have no idea who we are... Depressing-nya!!!

And there was this pharmacy named Farmasi Sri Petaling (at the Pizza Hut row), with a super stupiak and ugly signboard which is red and yellow in colour, and with a pharmacist...nah... most probably just a shop assistant (since in my opinion, he does not have any professionalism in him and therefore does not fit to be a pharmacist) who thinks he himself is DAMN funny and cool and yearns to look handsome though too bad I don't find any part of him being better looking than a frog, that actually insulted us when we approached them.

"You think you DAMN cute, is it?"

(qtd. Evelyn Yeoh, 2006)

Come on, man! This is for charity... Guess what this DUMB ASS said?

"Har? IMU ah? I thought you all damn rich one? How come still need sponsorship?"

(Yeah... I am sorry that he speaks broken English...)

Yeang Wee could actually control his temper and explained to this donkey about our project. Then he simply "Oh... Ohh..." for a while and asked for a sponsorship letter and we actually had to thank him for the sake of IMU reputation...

@$%#*^@#&+!@#%%**-@*#

After so much of hardwork and hassles, we finally managed to raise RM25!!! Haha... Yeah... It's really so "encouraging"... Hui Ming and Joan raised RM5 while Yi Jie, Yeang Wee and I managed to raise RM20... Haha... So, what's the conclusion?

Me, Yi Jie and Yeang Wee are therefore more charming!!~~~

(MUA HAHAHA... XD)

IMU cLoSE BeACh vOlLeYBalL TOuRnamEnT

Hehe... Ya ya... I know the fact that I can't play volleyball well clearly... Still, I took part in this tournament after being persuaded by Khang Wern for so many times...To give face to the IMU Volleyball Club lo... Haha... Anyway, I must admit that it was indeed a great experience!!
I teamed up with Yeang Wee (Mr. Babi), Su Miin, Xin Yin, and Wen Jiun to form Typhoon!! Haha... What a glamour name... However, we did not manage to create much disasters as what the name sounds like... In fact, we were the one who received all the disastrous moments. Hahaha... I can't play well, whereas the two superb players of my team, Su Miin and Yeang Wee, were off form on that day... Haha... Anyway, winning or losing does not matter much, at least to me la... The most important thing is that all of us could get together and had a healthy yet joyful day. Hehe...

Congratulation to the Losers, Sunshine, and Moonlight teams for winning the Champion, 1st Runner-Up and 2nd Runner-Up of the beach volleyball tournament!!~~~

~Me and my Typhoon team~

~The Sunshine team~

~Min Tien curi-curi touched his balls when no one was watching~

-Caption thanks to a ham sap fella-

~Me preparing to serve =P~

~The Vege Bird team~

~Zi Kang (left), my mentee, leader of the Losers team, 'Yee... disgusted by Min Tien!'~

~Min Tien (center), playing his balls~

-Caption thanks to the same ham sap fella-

~Super camera sensitive, 3dots~

~Papa said, "Foul! Min Tien, no playing of ball other than volleyball!~

-Caption thanks to still the ham sap fella-

~Min Tien with his killer serve~

~Yi Jie, Kah Yee & Wen Jiun (left to right) with the Donald Duck "flipper"~

~The Two Buttocks~

~"Which one is the left side and which one is the right ya?"~

~Group photo!YAY!~

~Tired but happy~

sLeEpy~~~ ZzzZzZZ...

Can you believe? It's already 9:43p.m. and I am still in the library... Am supposed to be nerd-ing on Drug and Disease, but I ended up blogging here. Hahaha... give myself three BRAVO's. Bravo bravo bravo!!! Can't blame me le... The subject is way too boring to be read at this time. Moreover, I slept at 5:30a.m. last "night" to watch the "gang fight" betweem Portugal and Netherland. Haha... Yup, ah Voon, I totally agree with what u said. Anyone of the footballers on the field was also more leng chai than our DD lecturer le. Wakaka...

Haiyo... until now I also cant figure out what are the differences between CVS diseases such as Heart Failure, Angina, Congenital Heart Diseases, Myocardial Infarction and etc. le... Was basically suffering throughout the lectures le... They were taught by our most respecful Nanny Ya... I simply could not resist the temptation to sleep during her lectures, yet her super high pitch "Ya! Ya! Ya" kept waking me up from my sleep le... Pity me... Hahaha... Ya... I know I am saying that out proudly... The so-called future Pharmacist... Hahaha...

Oooh... library closing down lo... Finally can go back home to bathe and take a short nap before coming back to school for the match between Italy and Australia... HAHAHA... Yay! Italy Rocks!!! Buffon, Piero and Inzaghi RULE!!!~~~ =P

EnGLanD VS sWEdeN

Huhu... Goodness... Sometimes I really wonder if I am already in the so called super-busy sem4 already... Have been going out so much lately and I havent started studying ever since this new semester started!!! What's more, all my frens have started nerding in the library already!!! But look at what I have done yesterday...

Spent the whole afternoon in computer lab doing Taekwondo meeting minutes. Then, went to the library to make myself feeling less guilty, but ended up listening to MP3 and dozing off while trying to study the first few sentences. Haha... Then went for Taekwondo training from 6:30p.m. till 8:00p.m. Played piano at Yi Jie's place while waiting for Khang Wern to tapao ban mee from pasar malam. After eating, went back home to bathe and change and immediately went to Mid Valley with Khang Wern, Yi Jie, Bao Bao, Wen Jiun and Medic sem4 gang to watch Fast and Furious Tokyo Drift at 12.00a.m.!!! Haha...

After the movie finished, what did I do after going back home? Of course not sleeping!!! Took bath again and went to IMU student lounge immediately with Su Miin for the England against Sweden football match at 3a.m. Goodness... Watched till 5a.m. I supported England, since obviously they have more leng chai, kakaka... But was quite disappointed with their performance... Brilliant performance by John Cole and Steven Gerrard. And finally Peter Crouch at least managed to shoot on target twice... Haha... Too bad the England defenders and Robinson the keeper screwed up everything... Let in 2 goals by Sweden and it was a draw!!! What a disappointment... Thought England would finally defeat Sweden for once after losing and drawing for the past 38 years... Wasted my sleeping time...

Amazingly I was able to wake up at 9a.m. this morning for lectures wor... Haha... Didnt doze off as well! Thanks to the cup of coffee in the morning. Hahaha...

-Joe Cole scored the first goal for England-

-Sweden's Isaksson unable to save Joe Cole's goal-

-Allback scored Sweden's first goal-

-Steven Gerrard celebrating with his teammate after scoring-

-Robinson unable to save Larsson's goal-

肥猪's Belated 21st Birthday Celebration

This was the first time the Mei Chee and VB gang ever combined to have a surprise birthday celebration for a particular person, and I proudly present to u, Mr. Rain aka 死肥猪 aka 死肥仔 aka 刺刺 aka 小刺儿 Lau Wee Yeaw. Hahaha... That shows how good his 人缘 is le... Although it was far too late (12th June) from the actual date (30th April), it's the thought that counts ma. Wakaka...

The 死肥猪 very cham le... His 猪妈 kena even worse le... It was just like her birthday only... Kept quiet only throughout the whole celebration yet had to suffer together with her 猪公. The VB thought of some crazy games in which both of them had to take part. Look into the pictures below and you would understand what I meant le... Haha...

Haiyo... This 死肥猪, wanna get him present also very hard le... Thanks to his "exotic" taste le... Don't want to get him something that he wont use le... Asked him to let me know what he wants and I go get it for him, who knows he takes so long to think and keeps changing his mind wor... Made me feel so guilty only, since I am the only one who still have not given him present wor...

蔡依林，如果你刚巧在看着我的部落格的话，就请你来为这只死肥猪跳支热舞，或帮他大大力的按摩吧！我想他会超爽的~ 就当作是我送他的礼物吧!哈哈哈。。。

Super-camera-sensitive fella in Gasoline

The gentlemen of VB Gang (su miin 抢镜头, haha...)

The VB Gang!!~~~

Passing of strawberry~~~ Muacks Muacks!!! XD

The munched and passed saliva coated strawberries. Yew~ =P

Yeaw kissing chili sauce off Kah Yee's face

Kah Yee kissing chili sauce off Yeaw's neck

刺刺 performing pole dance~~ XD

Smashed with "ceake"!!!

Wee 妖~~~ Hahaha... =D

肥猪 21-year-old

SEM 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So fast holidays ended already!!! Yesterday was the first day of school... and we already had to sit for English Placement Test!!! Super tired, man!! Came to uni at 10a.m. in the morning to collect timetable and module notes. Haha... saw all my classmates finally!!! Miss them sooooooooooooooo much le!!! Haha... Non-stop chit-chatting the moment we saw each other.

Then we had Drug & Desease 1 and 2 periods of Biopharmacy 3. Sob sob... Still gotta sit for the english test after that. Didnt do so well though. Not enough time le... I only used 30 minutes to complete 2 essays which were supposed to take an hour. Haha... Hopefully those MCQ questions could save me from having to attend English class ba, though the possibility is not very high... sob sob... anyway, I am mentally prepared already la. Miss Renwick / Miss Alison, HERE I COME!!!!! Hahahahaha....

Luckily we had some entertainment after the test. The VB and Mei Chee gang worked hand in hand to organize a surprise super belated birthday party for Wee Yeaw! Keke... He was kept in the dark and we made him do real lotsa tasks in order to get his present. Haha... pity Kah Yee for being forced by us to complete the task together with him. Haha... but we seriously had a great time. Wee Yeaw, remind me of ur present ya!!! Any price also can la, just as long as I can afford. Ngek Ngek...

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!

So nice to have a good rest after suffering for so long... Phew... The kind-hearted yet leng chai postman uncle sent my results to me and what a relieve to find out that I have passed my Sem 3!!! Hehe... But sad to say that this lovely holidays are going to end soon... sob sob... Although I must admit that lazing around, sleeping off most of the time and keeping myself fat throughout the holidays can be quite boring at times, haha... but to a certain extent, I do enjoy this kind of relaxing moments le. Hehe... Know I wont be able to even relax for one whole day like this after Sem 4 has started... Sob sob... Dun even wanna think about the life in Sem 4 le.. Seniors made it sound real scary... Never-ending assignments, lab reports, projects and exams!!! Argh... Sem 3 had nearly killed me already, man! Spare my life!!! Haha...

Hmm... However, I find myself looking forward to Broga Camp on this coming 10th!! Hehe... Just a bit worried that I may not be able to cope with the hectic activities, given that I have not been exercising for quite a long time already. Forgot to bring my sportshoes back and the old one I am having at home are very umcomfortable le... Hahaha... What an excuse!!!

God bless me for not KO during the camp le. Hahaha...

恨

为什么人与人之间的相处总是那么复杂呢？难道就不能将它简化吗？我们就不能简简单单，快快乐乐地过日子吗？唉。。。

恨一个人的感觉是什么呢？恨一个人难道不痛苦吗？恨一个人就能把所有的问题都解决了吗？恨一个人就能让自己得到解脱吗？我不清楚。。。或许更应该说是我不记得了吧。。。我曾经也怨恨过一个人，但那已经是好久好久以前的事了。我只知道那段回忆非常非常的不愉快。。。依稀记得我当时的心里非常地不平衡，觉得全世界都欠了我似的。。。诅咒着那个我恨着的人，让我得到了短暂的快感。但是到最后我又得到了什么呢？什么都没有。。。我不但什么都得不到，还因为憎恨而变得自闭，孤僻并且渐渐地迷失自己。。。失去许多朋友，错失了生命中许多美好的事物，还让家人为我烦忧。。。我错了！我在三年前终于透彻地明白了。。。我不再恨着那个人了！我尝试去原谅。我彻底地将过去的一切都放开了！忽然间，我觉得肩膀上的负荷轻了许多，人也慢慢地变得更开朗和快乐了。我得到了解脱。。。原来恨着一个人是那么痛苦的！真的！

学着如何放开吧。。。我知道这并不容易，而且需要花上好多时间去调适自己的心境。。。但是，相信我，这一切都是值得的。。。恨一个人没有想像中的难，但也没有想像中的容易。同样的，放开心胸也并非一件难事。其实最后或许你会发现，被你恨着的那个人可能只是失去了你这个朋友，但你自己却在不知不觉中开始因为不平衡的心里，造成朋友们的不谅解，排挤和厌恶。而你恨着的那个人竟和你的朋友们相处融洽，打成一片！是的。。。现实就是那么的残酷。。。

不要再犹豫了。。。所有事情都一定有它的解决方法。。。试着站在对方的角度想一想。。。别被怨恨蒙蔽了你的双眼！这只会使误会变得更深。。。如果你还是无法原谅那个人，那么就找个时间，面对面地对质，把话摊开来说清楚吧。。。说不定，你会发现，那个人并不如你想像中的坏，一切也并非如你想像中的不公平。。。

GOSH!!!!!!

Ooh~~ My dearest Hong Cai Mei Mei Blog... Just came to realization that it's been ages since I last updated u... I'm so so so sorry... I hereby promise that I will keep u updated from time to time from this moment onwards...

Hmm... was extremely busy for the past 2 months... due to the heavy workload, lab reports, projects and never-ending-super-tough exams... Didnt even have time to online, check and reply mail, not to mention updating blog... All I could care about was how to pass my Fundamentals of Pharmacology, Biopharmacy, Pharmaceutical Microbiology and Physical Pharmacy. Mind u, it's how to PASS, not how to SCORE!! Haha... not very ambitious, huh? Indeed... Pharmaco and Biopharm really freak me out, man!! There were so many things to study and memorize. Benzodiazipine (Goodness, did I get the spelling correct?), Hydropathy Test, Prostanoids, Kinin and all sorts of crazy stuffs. Nearly went berserk... and if u ask me, yes, I did throw my module notes onto the floor for 5 times when I got fed-up studying. HAHAHA... Didnt have much sleep as well... Grew older within that few weeks... sob sob.. Basically I just forced everything into my brain and vomited them out on the day of exam... and now I cant remember anything that I had studied for the exams. Haha... BRAVO! BRAVO!

Hmm... The results were out yesterday... Am waiting at home for postman uncle to deliver my results to me now... Think I should be able to get it tomolo ba... Wish me luck le!! Hahaha...

PHYSICAL PHARMACY CLASS TEST!!!!!

Physical Pharmacy (MC202) Class Test

Date : 31/03/2006

Venue: MPH1

Time : 9.00a.m. - 10.30a.m.

After working hard for so many days, finally had my physical pharmacy class test today. Phew.. so tiring, man! I collapsed immediately onto the table the moment I handed in the test papers. Exhausted! Guess it must have been due to the blood donation and not having enough sleep for too many days. I nearly couldnt make it in time this morning. Hehe... know why? Because I accidentally K.O. halfway studying yesterday, before I could start off with the last set of past year paper (with model answers). Luckily I already predicted that the possibility of me ter-KO-ing was very high. So, I set the alarm clock earlier on and thus managed to wake up at 7.45a.m. this morning. If not I would have missed the exam! Phew... But I felt so guilty for not being able to finish off with the past year papers. So, I looked through the last set of them after waking up and that's why I was almost late. Haha...

-Crystal Polymorphism (different 3-D packing arrangement)-

-Surfactant's structure and how it works-

-A crystal unit cell with defined size and shape-

-Crystal Polymorph-

The exam was quite ok overall. Dun wanna think about it anymore now that it's finally over. Haha.. Going out to Sungei Wang later to destress and to prepare for the ball tomolo! YIPPIE! Just leave all my Pharmacology and Microbiology reports aside first ba. Mua hahaha... XD

fIRsT BloOd dOnATion!!~~~

Yippie!! Finally donated my first pack of blood 2 days ago, i.e. on the 29th of March 2006. Hehe.. so happy because it was a good deed! Wanted to start donating blood long long ago, but the timing just wasnt right. Everytime when there was a blood donation drive, it either clashed with my exam date or my "aunty-visiting" date. Haha.. so I always missed the chance to go for blood donation. Even though I had Physical Pharmacy exam today, I still decided to donate because 2 days of rest should be sufficient for me. Hehe...

I was quite nervous at the beginning, as it was my first experience. But I felt much at ease when I knew that Yi Jie and Su Miin would be donating together with me. Su Miin was a first-timer as well. Haha.. So I get myself registered, had my haemoglobin amount checked and blood pressure taken by the doctors, then I went into the Ping-Pong room, i.e. the venue where the blood donation drive was held. Scary......

Yi Jie's haemoglobin count was too low, so she was not allowed to donate. I nearly got rejected as well, because my blood pressure of 100/60 was at the borderline. If it were to be any lower, I wouldnt get the experience of donating blood anymore. Haha..

So, when my turn came, I lied down onto the bed with my heart pumping rapidly. "Lup-Dup, Lup-Dup..." I could hear my heartbeat clearly. Haha... Yi Jie kept comforting me that it's not going to be painful while Stupid Buttock (the taller one), One Big Piece (Hendrick) and Twiggie (Vincent) kept teasing and scaring me. Bluek... XP

Didnt dare to look when the person-in-charged searched for my vein and poked the needle in. Haha.. It was slightly painful, just like an ant's bite. Then, my O Positive blood started flowing out. Haha.. Yi Jie even took photo of it as a remembrance. Haha... Then after about 15 minutes, done! 250mL of my blood was collected and supplements were given to me. I rested on the bed for a while and then I was healthy enough to move about again! Haha.. went to attend lecture somemore.. Hehe..

Yeah! What a good experience... even though I skipped Microbiology Tutorial because of it. Haha.. Will continue donating after this... The scar, or I would rather say, the prove of donating blood is still on my arm now. Hehe.. Feel so good whenever I see it.. Hehe...

P1/05 Microbiology Practical Exam

P1/05 Microbiology Practical Exam
Date : 22/03/2006
Time : 9.30a.m. - 10.30a.m. & 11.00a.m. - 12.00 p.m.
Venue: MDL 1234

Yup... Microbiology Practical Exam, in which we would be given a case presentation of a patient with a certain infection and we were supposed to identify the particular microorganism. My session was in the early morning, i.e. from 9.30a.m. to 10.30a.m.

So, since it was an open-bookprac exam and I had already studied for it on the previous day, I thought it was going to be pretty easy. Too bad it didnt turn out as what I wished for...

The bacteria of my case caused Conjunctivitis. When I arrived at my bench, I saw a Mac Conkey agar plate. I was quite happy, because supposingly, Mac Conkey agar is selective for Gram Negative bacteria. However, I saw the indication that one of the components that inhibit the growth of Gram Positive bacteria, i.e. the crystal violet was removed. So, I started to wonder whether the light-purple-coloured bacteria colonies could be Gram Positive one or not, since they didnt indicate whether or not the bile salts (another component that would inhibit the growth of Gram Positive bacteria) were removed. So, I was slightly confused but I decided to proceed with the Gram staining procedure first before making any conclusion.

After the gram-staining procedure, I observed the bacteria under the microscope to check whether it was Gram Positive (blue or purple) or Gram Negative (Red or Pink). Since I am not colour blind, I thought it would be pretty easy to differentiate the colour. Who knows the colour appeared as in between dard red and purple. So, again, I was confused. But most of the bacteria clumping appeared as diplococcus. So, I decided to take it as Gram Negative Nesseria, which should give me a positive Oxidase Test and a positive Catalase Test.

I wasnt confident with the Oxidase Test, as I had no experience at all in performing the test. Anyway, the bacteria gave me a negative results. SH*T!!! I was totally confused by the result. I decided not to waste time and to proceed with the Catalase Test. Luckily I managed to get a positive result. So, now... if the bacteria were of Neisseria species, why didnt they gave me a positive Oxidase Test result?????

I decided to perform another Oxidase Test, which in the end gave me a negative result as well. SIGH... So, I thought it would be better for me to perform another gram staining in order to reconfirm whether the bacteria were Gram Positive or Gram Negative. Again, the bacteria appeared as Dark Red / Purple under the microscope. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time was running out!!!!! 3 more minutes before the end of the exam, yet I was still unable to identify the microorganism. I was reluctant to take it as Staphylococcus, because Staphylococcus is a Gram Positive bacteria, and they are not supposed to grow on a Mac Conkey agar plate. GOSH!!!!! I continued to perform the THIRD Oxidase Test, but it gave me a negative result again. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At this point of time, our "Mario" lecturer had already dismissed us from the lab. Sob sob... So I finally decided to take it as Staphylococcus and passed up the answer sheet. I was the last one to exit the lab after swabbing the bench and "chin-chai-ly" washed and disinfected my hand with Hibiscrub.

When I discussed it with my other frens who got the same case as well, they told me that they faced the same problems as well. Sigh... I was so panic and lost after the prac exam. But some of my frens told me that Staphylococcus should be the correct answer. Then, I immediately rushed to surf the net for the correct answer after the quarantine session, and phew... indeed, staphylococcus was the correct answer. Hehehe... What a relieve, man!!

Streptococcus (chain) and Staphylococcus (clump) aureus

Haha... So that was basically my disastrous practical exam le... (-_-"')

宽容

最近学到了一个道理，那就是宽容原来才是让自己快乐的不二法则。

不久前在我自己的部落格写了一篇关于A的文章。当时的确是觉得满腹委屈，想要找个地方倾诉，所以才会造成了那篇文章的诞生。但是在冷静一段时间过后，我发现我竟然没有怨恨A的意念。当然我不会把自己形容得伟大到从来没有不满过A。但是，到最后，我发现当我尝试去谅解，原谅并淡忘这件事的时候，我渐渐地从郁郁寡欢中找回了快乐。我又再次地变回了以前的红彩妹妹了！哈哈。。。原来把不满一直藏在心底并不断埋怨的时候，才是难过的泉源。。。

宽容才是让自己得到解脱和重生的方法。。。

所以，朋友们，如果我的部落格能够有幸的得到您们的眷顾，我希望您们也能从中领会到一些道理。快乐至上！干杯！哈哈。。。＝）

How Does It Feel?

~Avril Lavigne~

This is an Avril Lavigne song. I don't know why but I always turn to her songs whenever I feel lost and down. They never fail to make me feel better. Somehow, I feel that the "I" in the song sounds very much like me. Hmm... what do u think?

I'm not afraid of anything

I just need to know that i can breathe

I dont' need much of anything

But suddenly, suddenly

I am small and the world is big

All around me is fast moving

Surrounded by so many things

Suddenly, suddenly

How does it feel

to be different from me?

Are we the same?

How does it feel

to be different from me?

Are we the same?

How does it feel?

I am young and I am free

But I get tired and I get weak

I get lost and I can't sleep

But suddenly, suddenly

Would you come find me?

Would you cry with me?

I am small and the world is big

But I'm not afriad of anything

How does it feel?

How does it feel?

You're different from me, different

我的心真的受伤了。。。

唉。。。 我又再一次的被这个人伤害了。。。 就以A来作为这个人的代号吧。

我到底做错了什么事？ 为什么要这样对我呢？ 我从真心诚意对待朋友的角度，默默地为A做了这么多事，不期望得到任何回报，也不期望A会知道，只求我身边的朋友都能够快快乐乐的过日子。 有时，虽然我自己会很辛苦，会觉得很累，我也不在乎。。。 但我换来的又是什么呢？

是Ａ的不信任，利用，伤害，和发泄。。。

而我其实知道这一切都是因为一个我不想在这里说出来的理由。。。

虽然很多人都告诉我，Ａ一直以来都是在利用我，而且我自己也心知肚明，但我始终都不愿意接受这个事实。或许是因为我不愿意去承认Ａ是个这样没良心的人，也不愿意去承认我自己做人有多失败吧。。。

即使Ａ知道他伤我有多深又如何呢？我想或许Ａ也不会在乎吧。。。对Ａ来说，我可能连一只蚂蚁都不如。。。

曾经对我的一个好朋友说过，如果我要在ｂｌｏｇ上面写一个人，我一定不会写到让人知道我是在指谁。我想除了那些我想让他们知道这件事的人以外，应该没有其他人，包括Ａ自己在内，会猜到我是在说谁吧。但是，我想Ａ其实也不会有这个闲情逸致来看我的ｂｌｏｇ吧。。。因为Ａ的全副精神都已经放在对Ａ来说比较有意义的事情上了。。。像我这样的一个人，对A来说根本就不重要。。。

有没有人可以告诉我，我从今以后应该以什么态度来面对Ａ呢？唉。。。

I'm so tired...

Wah... I am seriously very tired after one whole week of orientation, even though the orientation wasnt meant for my batch actually. Haha... Actually the seniors are much more exhausted comparing to the juniors le... When they were already on their way back home, grumbling about the late dismiss, we still had to stay back to clean up the mess, discuss about the upcoming events on the next day, and prepare for the games. Then, I happened to be in Group A, of which last week all the Group-A-ders had a timetable that really sucks. Throughout the whole week we had morning class starting from 8 or 9a.m. and we had to stay back until 5pm either because of lab session or lectures. No matter how tired we were, we still had to force ourselves to feel energetic to organize the orientation for the juniors. However, some of the juniors not only never appreciate our hard works, but were kind of rude towards us as well... Sigh... Luckily there were some of them who were very supporting. Felt quite glad to see that they actually enjoyed the orientation. Hehe... =)

I thought I could have some proper resting now that the orientation is over, but I was wrong. All the deadlines of our projects, lab reports, presentation and exams are around the corner. Don't even have time to go back to my hometown. Haiz... But I seriously don't have any motivation to keep me going le... Can somebody give me a dozen of Red Bulls to boost up my energy?? Haha... XD Guess I just need a good sleep... Many of my frenz have fallen sick... I must make sure that I myself am healthy before I can take good care of them, right? Luckily I have no morning class tomorrow. Phew... =)

KANGEN!!!!!

GOSH!!! Yet again, my pendrive was infected by the stupid Kangen virus lingering around in IMU computers... I seriously don't understand how long the IT department needs to fix the problem... The virus was already discovered last year, and thanks to it, many of my frenz' lost their Foundation Pharmacy Project a few days before the deadline. Those who didn't have a back-up copy had to rush like hell to get their work done. The Kangen virus basically appears as a Word file and it is capable of attacking all the other Microsoft Word files. If u were to try to open the Kangen file, a red-coloured rose and a stupid Malay poem that sounds something like "Cintaku pada mu tidak akan berubah..." would appear. Only few of the latest anti-virus system could detect this virus and delete or remove it.

We were so shocked and panic when we found out about the virus. Since most of us didnt have our own pc nor anti-virus software, we decided to send our pendrive to the so-called Helpdesk. Know what they did? While we were waiting for them to remove the virus from our pendrive, they were so "efficient" that they got it done in minutes, by deleting all the Word files in our pendrive. Yup, Kangen virus was removed, but so were our projects. So, can anybody answer me, WHAT'S THE POINT??!!! What's the difference from leaving the Kangen virus there and destroying our Word files? Even I myself don't need a minute to delete the files. Just press and hold "Ctrl" on the keyboard, and then click on all the the files to be deleted, and press "Delete". *TA DANG*!!!~~~~~ there goes all of them... Do we even need an IT Department to do so???

Then, after closing down the whole computer lab for a few days, they finally claimed that they had "successfully" removed the virus. However, I still heard people complaining about getting infected by this virus from time to time. It was finally my turn yesterday. I plugged my pendrive in to check on something for my senior, and "BOOM!", a Word file titled Kangen suddenly appeared in my pendrive. I tried to use the anti-virus system to remove it but it was up to no good. The Kangen file just kept popping out. So, I decided to shift to another computer, hoping that the anti-virus system would work. But before I could do anything, the Sophos Anti-virus system detected the virus and deleted all the Word files in my pendrive, without even asking for my permission!!! All my projects just disappeared right in front of my eyes, yet I couldnt do anything to save them... I was so frustrated, especially after so many tiring days of organising the junior's orientation events. I informed the IT Department immediately and they just replied me, "Yeah, alright. We'll check on it LATER". WAH!!!~~~ So "efficient" of them... Hmph!

The incidence totally spoilt my mood. Luckily I have got a bunch of caring frenz. They gave me consolation and offered to help me with the project. I shared a cone of ice-cream with Bao Bao in order to cheer myself up while not gaining too much weight at the same time. Haha... thanks to all my caring frenz, I forgot about the incidence and managed to Hong Cai again soon. Hehehe...

"IT Department, 我们不是还钱给你们来跷脚的, ok?"

To: THe oNE & OnLY gOh YeN mIN

"Yen Min, it's just too bad that we couldnt meet up before u left for Melbourne... It all happened so fast... I always thought that we would be able to meet up again after the gathering with Michelle like few weeks ago... Haiz... Actually I should feel glad for u and congratulate u, instead of sighing here... But somehow, I just cant get myself to do so... Suddenly feel so lost and down for not having u around anymore... Now I cant call u up to chat whenever I feel down again... Now I cant call u out to lepak whenever I miss u again... Now I cant go Kajang look for u whenever I feel like eating Kajang Satay again... Now I cant tease u whenever ur anteanna is not functioning again... Now I cant bully u whenever I am too stressed up again... Now there are so many things that I cant do together with u anymore.... Seriously feel like crying when I come to think of this...

Yes, I know u r coming back for vacation... but that's still very different from what we used to be... You can call me out whenever u like, and I can call u out whenever I like as well... No matter how long we are separated from each other, we never seem to be drifting apart... U can always read my mind, and so am I... We have so much to share with each other that whenever we meet up, we always cant stop talking even when it's time to part... U understand me very well and u are always willing to listen to my problem, to share my sorrow and happiness, and to share ur own experience with me, too... U are always there for me... Sorry that I take u for granted at times... Because I am so used to having u around... Now when I finally realize how important u are to me, u are no longer here in Malaysia... Sigh...

And now, I give u my promise that I will always cherish our friendship real loads... No matter what happenss, u will always be there, deep inside my heart... I cross my heart... Yen Min, u are seriously an amazing fren... I had so much great moments when I was in Taylors, because I was lucky enough to have u, Goh Yen Min as my roommate... I dunno how to confer my gratitude, but u really mean a lot to me... Thanks for everything, yen min... And all the best!!!"

-Hug Hug- =D

~As we go on,~

~we remember,~

~all the times we spent together...~

~And as our lives change,~

~on whatever,~

~we will still be,~

~~~FRENZ FOREVER~~~

-Yen Min, the best roommate that I could ever get-

One U --> Mid Valley

Hehehe... yup... the shopping virus was getting out of control again. After nerd-ing for the whole day on saturday, the Mei Chee gang decided to go One Utama to shop and destress on Sunday. This time, Khang Wern finally managed to wake up and avoided the title of FFK Queen. Haha... It was the two guys, i.e. Su Miin and Wei Meng who couldnt get themselves ouf of the bed. So, me, Khang Wern, Yi Jie and Bao Bao switched our destination from One U to Mid Valley since One U was way too far from IMU and none of us actually knew how to take public transport there. Hehe...

Everyone of us managed to get something. Khang Wern bought way too many things for me to list down here. HAHAHA... XD From head to toes, man! Accessories lah, shirt lah, belt lah, skirt lah, shoes lah and so on lah... Haha... Really lives up to the name of Shopping Queen. Haha... EJ bought a pair of Converse Shoes (thanks to Bao Bao) while Bao Bao got herself a pants from S&K. Anyway, Bao Bao had nothing else on her mind other than a blue-coloured sexy ball dress she saw from Phenomenal. Too bad she has already bought a ball dress from Sandakan. Bao,

"一美还有一美美"啦...

Haha... myself? Didnt manage to get anything at first... Felt so envious towards the 3 of them... I wanted to spend some money, too leh. Hahaha... so when we finally went into Seed just before we left, under the "viral influence" of that 猪婆雯, I bought a white-coloured shirt. Haha... still need to get a singlet to goes with it though... Hehehe... XD

猪婆雯，你是损友!!! 哈哈哈。。。不过，

"I'M LOVIN IT~~~" =P

dO I sEriOusLY loOk LIkE hIm? (?_?)

Haiyo... dunno since when my fren started saying that I look like the Korean star, Kim Jae Won... hmm.. seriously don't understand which part of me looks like him lo... He's kind of cute and my mum always say that he looks 傻傻的 when he smiles from ear to ear. Haha.. I do admit that from a certain angle I look only a bit bit like him... but not as exaggerated as my frens described la...

We went to Chili's yesterday for Khang Wern and Su Miin's birthday celebration... Wei Meng brought his sun-glass along. So I simply put on the sun-glass for fun and before I could do anything, my frenz started shouting "Kim Jae Won!!!" so loud that all the customers in the restaurant turned around and stared at me... Goodness... Really 老掉, man! Haha...

So, if u happen to be reading this blog now, here is a comparison of me and Mr. Kim Jae Won. Do let me know if I really look like him... So that I can start imitating his signature and become his imposter in the future... Mua haha... =P

"Earn Money, Earn Money, EARN MONEY~~~"

Samuel & Kevin

Keke... yes yes! u are right! Samuel & Kevin, the retail garment outlet that u can get in Mid Valley, One U, and some other shopping malls. So, what's so special about S&K? Hmm... I dunno, but I managed to get 2 of my new year outfit from the Mid Valley outlet when I went there to shop with some of the Mei CheeS, before CNY. They were having 40% storewide discount on that day. So, Khang Wern got herself a T-shirt and a long pants whereas Bao Bao was in time to grab 2 T-shirts and a long pants. The T-shirts that they bought were of the same design, but different colour. Myself? Hehe... I bought 2 sleeveless shirts, same design, but different colour. All the three of us were very satisfied with what we had got. =D

Too bad I didnt manage to get any pants. The size just didnt fit me well... I kept thinking of going back to try on the other designs and get myself a new pants if possible. So was Khang Wern. Haha... She regretted for not getting another orange-coloured T-shirt the other day. We just couldnt get S&K ouf of our mind le, Hahaha... XD

Anyway, I really like my two S&K sleevesless shirts very very much le... Even my mum also praised that the colour and the design of the shirts were nice oh!! Hehe... Oh ya!! By the way, S&K didnt pay me to promote their products here oh!! I did it out of my own will... Hahaha.. =P

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!~~~

Halo, all my dear frenz, how's Chinese New Year so far? Hehe... I am sure u guys enjoy yourself very much le, right? =)

Hmm... me myself am not so satisfied with my Ang Pow income this year though... Most of my relatives were not around. They either went abroad for vacation or didnt even bother to go visit each other. Furthermore, my grandmother just passed away last year... So, the old-time reunion gathering during CNY at my 4th uncle's place is also gone, together with my grandmother... To me, actually the number of Ang PowS that I received is not that important, even though I seriously need some money to get myself some stuffs. Keke... XD It is the feeling of getting together that matters! Other than this occasion, we dont really have much chances in which all of us are free to sit down and relax and to share about what we had experienced in the past year. This is indeed a good way of keeping in touch and staying close with our relatives and old frenz... It is just too bad that too many of us dont really understand and appreciate the true value of this festival...

Hehe... Today my mum's secondary school classmates came to visit her... One of them was so talkative and amusing la. She talked with all kind of expression on her face. Because of her daring characteristic, she is now a very successful career woman and has experienced loads of special events in her life. I actually found myself enjoyed listening to her. What a sporting and funny aunty... Haha... At the same time, I felt so envious that my mum and her old frenz could retain their closeness so many years after they parted... How I wish that the same thing will happen to me as well... I'm seriously afraid to lose contact with all my wonderful frenz after graduation... Hmm... Yup... How I wish......

Anyway, I am enjoying my non-stop eating CNY holidays now. Mind u, dont try to remind me how much weight I am going to gain after this, ok? Haha... XD And I am feeling so happy to be in my new year clothing. Finally dont have to abide to IMU dress code already. Hehe... =P Hope the same goes to u guys la!! =D

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!~~~~~~