Wednesday, May 24, 2006

为什么人与人之间的相处总是那么复杂呢?难道就不能将它简化吗?我们就不能简简单单,快快乐乐地过日子吗?唉。。。
恨一个人的感觉是什么呢?恨一个人难道不痛苦吗?恨一个人就能把所有的问题都解决了吗?恨一个人就能让自己得到解脱吗?我不清楚。。。或许更应该说是我不记得了吧。。。我曾经也怨恨过一个人,但那已经是好久好久以前的事了。我只知道那段回忆非常非常的不愉快。。。依稀记得我当时的心里非常地不平衡,觉得全世界都欠了我似的。。。诅咒着那个我恨着的人,让我得到了短暂的快感。但是到最后我又得到了什么呢?什么都没有。。。我不但什么都得不到,还因为憎恨而变得自闭,孤僻并且渐渐地迷失自己。。。失去许多朋友,错失了生命中许多美好的事物,还让家人为我烦忧。。。我错了!我在三年前终于透彻地明白了。。。我不再恨着那个人了!我尝试去原谅。我彻底地将过去的一切都放开了!忽然间,我觉得肩膀上的负荷轻了许多,人也慢慢地变得更开朗和快乐了。我得到了解脱。。。原来恨着一个人是那么痛苦的!真的!
学着如何放开吧。。。我知道这并不容易,而且需要花上好多时间去调适自己的心境。。。但是,相信我,这一切都是值得的。。。恨一个人没有想像中的难,但也没有想像中的容易。同样的,放开心胸也并非一件难事。其实最后或许你会发现,被你恨着的那个人可能只是失去了你这个朋友,但你自己却在不知不觉中开始因为不平衡的心里,造成朋友们的不谅解,排挤和厌恶。而你恨着的那个人竟和你的朋友们相处融洽,打成一片!是的。。。现实就是那么的残酷。。。
不要再犹豫了。。。所有事情都一定有它的解决方法。。。试着站在对方的角度想一想。。。别被怨恨蒙蔽了你的双眼!这只会使误会变得更深。。。如果你还是无法原谅那个人,那么就找个时间,面对面地对质,把话摊开来说清楚吧。。。说不定,你会发现,那个人并不如你想像中的坏,一切也并非如你想像中的不公平。。。

GOSH!!!!!!

Ooh~~ My dearest Hong Cai Mei Mei Blog... Just came to realization that it's been ages since I last updated u... I'm so so so sorry... I hereby promise that I will keep u updated from time to time from this moment onwards...
Hmm... was extremely busy for the past 2 months... due to the heavy workload, lab reports, projects and never-ending-super-tough exams... Didnt even have time to online, check and reply mail, not to mention updating blog... All I could care about was how to pass my Fundamentals of Pharmacology, Biopharmacy, Pharmaceutical Microbiology and Physical Pharmacy. Mind u, it's how to PASS, not how to SCORE!! Haha... not very ambitious, huh? Indeed... Pharmaco and Biopharm really freak me out, man!! There were so many things to study and memorize. Benzodiazipine (Goodness, did I get the spelling correct?), Hydropathy Test, Prostanoids, Kinin and all sorts of crazy stuffs. Nearly went berserk... and if u ask me, yes, I did throw my module notes onto the floor for 5 times when I got fed-up studying. HAHAHA... Didnt have much sleep as well... Grew older within that few weeks... sob sob.. Basically I just forced everything into my brain and vomited them out on the day of exam... and now I cant remember anything that I had studied for the exams. Haha... BRAVO! BRAVO!
Hmm... The results were out yesterday... Am waiting at home for postman uncle to deliver my results to me now... Think I should be able to get it tomolo ba... Wish me luck le!! Hahaha...