PHYSICAL PHARMACY CLASS TEST!!!!!

Physical Pharmacy (MC202) Class Test

Date : 31/03/2006

Venue: MPH1

Time : 9.00a.m. - 10.30a.m.

After working hard for so many days, finally had my physical pharmacy class test today. Phew.. so tiring, man! I collapsed immediately onto the table the moment I handed in the test papers. Exhausted! Guess it must have been due to the blood donation and not having enough sleep for too many days. I nearly couldnt make it in time this morning. Hehe... know why? Because I accidentally K.O. halfway studying yesterday, before I could start off with the last set of past year paper (with model answers). Luckily I already predicted that the possibility of me ter-KO-ing was very high. So, I set the alarm clock earlier on and thus managed to wake up at 7.45a.m. this morning. If not I would have missed the exam! Phew... But I felt so guilty for not being able to finish off with the past year papers. So, I looked through the last set of them after waking up and that's why I was almost late. Haha...

-Crystal Polymorphism (different 3-D packing arrangement)-

-Surfactant's structure and how it works-

-A crystal unit cell with defined size and shape-

-Crystal Polymorph-

The exam was quite ok overall. Dun wanna think about it anymore now that it's finally over. Haha.. Going out to Sungei Wang later to destress and to prepare for the ball tomolo! YIPPIE! Just leave all my Pharmacology and Microbiology reports aside first ba. Mua hahaha... XD

fIRsT BloOd dOnATion!!~~~

Yippie!! Finally donated my first pack of blood 2 days ago, i.e. on the 29th of March 2006. Hehe.. so happy because it was a good deed! Wanted to start donating blood long long ago, but the timing just wasnt right. Everytime when there was a blood donation drive, it either clashed with my exam date or my "aunty-visiting" date. Haha.. so I always missed the chance to go for blood donation. Even though I had Physical Pharmacy exam today, I still decided to donate because 2 days of rest should be sufficient for me. Hehe...

I was quite nervous at the beginning, as it was my first experience. But I felt much at ease when I knew that Yi Jie and Su Miin would be donating together with me. Su Miin was a first-timer as well. Haha.. So I get myself registered, had my haemoglobin amount checked and blood pressure taken by the doctors, then I went into the Ping-Pong room, i.e. the venue where the blood donation drive was held. Scary......

Yi Jie's haemoglobin count was too low, so she was not allowed to donate. I nearly got rejected as well, because my blood pressure of 100/60 was at the borderline. If it were to be any lower, I wouldnt get the experience of donating blood anymore. Haha..

So, when my turn came, I lied down onto the bed with my heart pumping rapidly. "Lup-Dup, Lup-Dup..." I could hear my heartbeat clearly. Haha... Yi Jie kept comforting me that it's not going to be painful while Stupid Buttock (the taller one), One Big Piece (Hendrick) and Twiggie (Vincent) kept teasing and scaring me. Bluek... XP

Didnt dare to look when the person-in-charged searched for my vein and poked the needle in. Haha.. It was slightly painful, just like an ant's bite. Then, my O Positive blood started flowing out. Haha.. Yi Jie even took photo of it as a remembrance. Haha... Then after about 15 minutes, done! 250mL of my blood was collected and supplements were given to me. I rested on the bed for a while and then I was healthy enough to move about again! Haha.. went to attend lecture somemore.. Hehe..

Yeah! What a good experience... even though I skipped Microbiology Tutorial because of it. Haha.. Will continue donating after this... The scar, or I would rather say, the prove of donating blood is still on my arm now. Hehe.. Feel so good whenever I see it.. Hehe...

P1/05 Microbiology Practical Exam

P1/05 Microbiology Practical Exam
Date : 22/03/2006
Time : 9.30a.m. - 10.30a.m. & 11.00a.m. - 12.00 p.m.
Venue: MDL 1234

Yup... Microbiology Practical Exam, in which we would be given a case presentation of a patient with a certain infection and we were supposed to identify the particular microorganism. My session was in the early morning, i.e. from 9.30a.m. to 10.30a.m.

So, since it was an open-bookprac exam and I had already studied for it on the previous day, I thought it was going to be pretty easy. Too bad it didnt turn out as what I wished for...

The bacteria of my case caused Conjunctivitis. When I arrived at my bench, I saw a Mac Conkey agar plate. I was quite happy, because supposingly, Mac Conkey agar is selective for Gram Negative bacteria. However, I saw the indication that one of the components that inhibit the growth of Gram Positive bacteria, i.e. the crystal violet was removed. So, I started to wonder whether the light-purple-coloured bacteria colonies could be Gram Positive one or not, since they didnt indicate whether or not the bile salts (another component that would inhibit the growth of Gram Positive bacteria) were removed. So, I was slightly confused but I decided to proceed with the Gram staining procedure first before making any conclusion.

After the gram-staining procedure, I observed the bacteria under the microscope to check whether it was Gram Positive (blue or purple) or Gram Negative (Red or Pink). Since I am not colour blind, I thought it would be pretty easy to differentiate the colour. Who knows the colour appeared as in between dard red and purple. So, again, I was confused. But most of the bacteria clumping appeared as diplococcus. So, I decided to take it as Gram Negative Nesseria, which should give me a positive Oxidase Test and a positive Catalase Test.

I wasnt confident with the Oxidase Test, as I had no experience at all in performing the test. Anyway, the bacteria gave me a negative results. SH*T!!! I was totally confused by the result. I decided not to waste time and to proceed with the Catalase Test. Luckily I managed to get a positive result. So, now... if the bacteria were of Neisseria species, why didnt they gave me a positive Oxidase Test result?????

I decided to perform another Oxidase Test, which in the end gave me a negative result as well. SIGH... So, I thought it would be better for me to perform another gram staining in order to reconfirm whether the bacteria were Gram Positive or Gram Negative. Again, the bacteria appeared as Dark Red / Purple under the microscope. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time was running out!!!!! 3 more minutes before the end of the exam, yet I was still unable to identify the microorganism. I was reluctant to take it as Staphylococcus, because Staphylococcus is a Gram Positive bacteria, and they are not supposed to grow on a Mac Conkey agar plate. GOSH!!!!! I continued to perform the THIRD Oxidase Test, but it gave me a negative result again. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At this point of time, our "Mario" lecturer had already dismissed us from the lab. Sob sob... So I finally decided to take it as Staphylococcus and passed up the answer sheet. I was the last one to exit the lab after swabbing the bench and "chin-chai-ly" washed and disinfected my hand with Hibiscrub.

When I discussed it with my other frens who got the same case as well, they told me that they faced the same problems as well. Sigh... I was so panic and lost after the prac exam. But some of my frens told me that Staphylococcus should be the correct answer. Then, I immediately rushed to surf the net for the correct answer after the quarantine session, and phew... indeed, staphylococcus was the correct answer. Hehehe... What a relieve, man!!

Streptococcus (chain) and Staphylococcus (clump) aureus

Haha... So that was basically my disastrous practical exam le... (-_-"')

宽容

最近学到了一个道理，那就是宽容原来才是让自己快乐的不二法则。

不久前在我自己的部落格写了一篇关于A的文章。当时的确是觉得满腹委屈，想要找个地方倾诉，所以才会造成了那篇文章的诞生。但是在冷静一段时间过后，我发现我竟然没有怨恨A的意念。当然我不会把自己形容得伟大到从来没有不满过A。但是，到最后，我发现当我尝试去谅解，原谅并淡忘这件事的时候，我渐渐地从郁郁寡欢中找回了快乐。我又再次地变回了以前的红彩妹妹了！哈哈。。。原来把不满一直藏在心底并不断埋怨的时候，才是难过的泉源。。。

宽容才是让自己得到解脱和重生的方法。。。

所以，朋友们，如果我的部落格能够有幸的得到您们的眷顾，我希望您们也能从中领会到一些道理。快乐至上！干杯！哈哈。。。＝）

How Does It Feel?

~Avril Lavigne~

This is an Avril Lavigne song. I don't know why but I always turn to her songs whenever I feel lost and down. They never fail to make me feel better. Somehow, I feel that the "I" in the song sounds very much like me. Hmm... what do u think?

I'm not afraid of anything

I just need to know that i can breathe

I dont' need much of anything

But suddenly, suddenly

I am small and the world is big

All around me is fast moving

Surrounded by so many things

Suddenly, suddenly

How does it feel

to be different from me?

Are we the same?

How does it feel

to be different from me?

Are we the same?

How does it feel?

I am young and I am free

But I get tired and I get weak

I get lost and I can't sleep

But suddenly, suddenly

Would you come find me?

Would you cry with me?

I am small and the world is big

But I'm not afriad of anything

How does it feel?

How does it feel?

You're different from me, different

我的心真的受伤了。。。

唉。。。 我又再一次的被这个人伤害了。。。 就以A来作为这个人的代号吧。

我到底做错了什么事？ 为什么要这样对我呢？ 我从真心诚意对待朋友的角度，默默地为A做了这么多事，不期望得到任何回报，也不期望A会知道，只求我身边的朋友都能够快快乐乐的过日子。 有时，虽然我自己会很辛苦，会觉得很累，我也不在乎。。。 但我换来的又是什么呢？

是Ａ的不信任，利用，伤害，和发泄。。。

而我其实知道这一切都是因为一个我不想在这里说出来的理由。。。

虽然很多人都告诉我，Ａ一直以来都是在利用我，而且我自己也心知肚明，但我始终都不愿意接受这个事实。或许是因为我不愿意去承认Ａ是个这样没良心的人，也不愿意去承认我自己做人有多失败吧。。。

即使Ａ知道他伤我有多深又如何呢？我想或许Ａ也不会在乎吧。。。对Ａ来说，我可能连一只蚂蚁都不如。。。

曾经对我的一个好朋友说过，如果我要在ｂｌｏｇ上面写一个人，我一定不会写到让人知道我是在指谁。我想除了那些我想让他们知道这件事的人以外，应该没有其他人，包括Ａ自己在内，会猜到我是在说谁吧。但是，我想Ａ其实也不会有这个闲情逸致来看我的ｂｌｏｇ吧。。。因为Ａ的全副精神都已经放在对Ａ来说比较有意义的事情上了。。。像我这样的一个人，对A来说根本就不重要。。。

有没有人可以告诉我，我从今以后应该以什么态度来面对Ａ呢？唉。。。

I'm so tired...

Wah... I am seriously very tired after one whole week of orientation, even though the orientation wasnt meant for my batch actually. Haha... Actually the seniors are much more exhausted comparing to the juniors le... When they were already on their way back home, grumbling about the late dismiss, we still had to stay back to clean up the mess, discuss about the upcoming events on the next day, and prepare for the games. Then, I happened to be in Group A, of which last week all the Group-A-ders had a timetable that really sucks. Throughout the whole week we had morning class starting from 8 or 9a.m. and we had to stay back until 5pm either because of lab session or lectures. No matter how tired we were, we still had to force ourselves to feel energetic to organize the orientation for the juniors. However, some of the juniors not only never appreciate our hard works, but were kind of rude towards us as well... Sigh... Luckily there were some of them who were very supporting. Felt quite glad to see that they actually enjoyed the orientation. Hehe... =)

I thought I could have some proper resting now that the orientation is over, but I was wrong. All the deadlines of our projects, lab reports, presentation and exams are around the corner. Don't even have time to go back to my hometown. Haiz... But I seriously don't have any motivation to keep me going le... Can somebody give me a dozen of Red Bulls to boost up my energy?? Haha... XD Guess I just need a good sleep... Many of my frenz have fallen sick... I must make sure that I myself am healthy before I can take good care of them, right? Luckily I have no morning class tomorrow. Phew... =)

KANGEN!!!!!

GOSH!!! Yet again, my pendrive was infected by the stupid Kangen virus lingering around in IMU computers... I seriously don't understand how long the IT department needs to fix the problem... The virus was already discovered last year, and thanks to it, many of my frenz' lost their Foundation Pharmacy Project a few days before the deadline. Those who didn't have a back-up copy had to rush like hell to get their work done. The Kangen virus basically appears as a Word file and it is capable of attacking all the other Microsoft Word files. If u were to try to open the Kangen file, a red-coloured rose and a stupid Malay poem that sounds something like "Cintaku pada mu tidak akan berubah..." would appear. Only few of the latest anti-virus system could detect this virus and delete or remove it.

We were so shocked and panic when we found out about the virus. Since most of us didnt have our own pc nor anti-virus software, we decided to send our pendrive to the so-called Helpdesk. Know what they did? While we were waiting for them to remove the virus from our pendrive, they were so "efficient" that they got it done in minutes, by deleting all the Word files in our pendrive. Yup, Kangen virus was removed, but so were our projects. So, can anybody answer me, WHAT'S THE POINT??!!! What's the difference from leaving the Kangen virus there and destroying our Word files? Even I myself don't need a minute to delete the files. Just press and hold "Ctrl" on the keyboard, and then click on all the the files to be deleted, and press "Delete". *TA DANG*!!!~~~~~ there goes all of them... Do we even need an IT Department to do so???

Then, after closing down the whole computer lab for a few days, they finally claimed that they had "successfully" removed the virus. However, I still heard people complaining about getting infected by this virus from time to time. It was finally my turn yesterday. I plugged my pendrive in to check on something for my senior, and "BOOM!", a Word file titled Kangen suddenly appeared in my pendrive. I tried to use the anti-virus system to remove it but it was up to no good. The Kangen file just kept popping out. So, I decided to shift to another computer, hoping that the anti-virus system would work. But before I could do anything, the Sophos Anti-virus system detected the virus and deleted all the Word files in my pendrive, without even asking for my permission!!! All my projects just disappeared right in front of my eyes, yet I couldnt do anything to save them... I was so frustrated, especially after so many tiring days of organising the junior's orientation events. I informed the IT Department immediately and they just replied me, "Yeah, alright. We'll check on it LATER". WAH!!!~~~ So "efficient" of them... Hmph!

The incidence totally spoilt my mood. Luckily I have got a bunch of caring frenz. They gave me consolation and offered to help me with the project. I shared a cone of ice-cream with Bao Bao in order to cheer myself up while not gaining too much weight at the same time. Haha... thanks to all my caring frenz, I forgot about the incidence and managed to Hong Cai again soon. Hehehe...

"IT Department, 我们不是还钱给你们来跷脚的, ok?"

To: THe oNE & OnLY gOh YeN mIN

"Yen Min, it's just too bad that we couldnt meet up before u left for Melbourne... It all happened so fast... I always thought that we would be able to meet up again after the gathering with Michelle like few weeks ago... Haiz... Actually I should feel glad for u and congratulate u, instead of sighing here... But somehow, I just cant get myself to do so... Suddenly feel so lost and down for not having u around anymore... Now I cant call u up to chat whenever I feel down again... Now I cant call u out to lepak whenever I miss u again... Now I cant go Kajang look for u whenever I feel like eating Kajang Satay again... Now I cant tease u whenever ur anteanna is not functioning again... Now I cant bully u whenever I am too stressed up again... Now there are so many things that I cant do together with u anymore.... Seriously feel like crying when I come to think of this...

Yes, I know u r coming back for vacation... but that's still very different from what we used to be... You can call me out whenever u like, and I can call u out whenever I like as well... No matter how long we are separated from each other, we never seem to be drifting apart... U can always read my mind, and so am I... We have so much to share with each other that whenever we meet up, we always cant stop talking even when it's time to part... U understand me very well and u are always willing to listen to my problem, to share my sorrow and happiness, and to share ur own experience with me, too... U are always there for me... Sorry that I take u for granted at times... Because I am so used to having u around... Now when I finally realize how important u are to me, u are no longer here in Malaysia... Sigh...

And now, I give u my promise that I will always cherish our friendship real loads... No matter what happenss, u will always be there, deep inside my heart... I cross my heart... Yen Min, u are seriously an amazing fren... I had so much great moments when I was in Taylors, because I was lucky enough to have u, Goh Yen Min as my roommate... I dunno how to confer my gratitude, but u really mean a lot to me... Thanks for everything, yen min... And all the best!!!"

-Hug Hug- =D

~As we go on,~

~we remember,~

~all the times we spent together...~

~And as our lives change,~

~on whatever,~

~we will still be,~

~~~FRENZ FOREVER~~~

-Yen Min, the best roommate that I could ever get-

One U --> Mid Valley

Hehehe... yup... the shopping virus was getting out of control again. After nerd-ing for the whole day on saturday, the Mei Chee gang decided to go One Utama to shop and destress on Sunday. This time, Khang Wern finally managed to wake up and avoided the title of FFK Queen. Haha... It was the two guys, i.e. Su Miin and Wei Meng who couldnt get themselves ouf of the bed. So, me, Khang Wern, Yi Jie and Bao Bao switched our destination from One U to Mid Valley since One U was way too far from IMU and none of us actually knew how to take public transport there. Hehe...

Everyone of us managed to get something. Khang Wern bought way too many things for me to list down here. HAHAHA... XD From head to toes, man! Accessories lah, shirt lah, belt lah, skirt lah, shoes lah and so on lah... Haha... Really lives up to the name of Shopping Queen. Haha... EJ bought a pair of Converse Shoes (thanks to Bao Bao) while Bao Bao got herself a pants from S&K. Anyway, Bao Bao had nothing else on her mind other than a blue-coloured sexy ball dress she saw from Phenomenal. Too bad she has already bought a ball dress from Sandakan. Bao,

"一美还有一美美"啦...

Haha... myself? Didnt manage to get anything at first... Felt so envious towards the 3 of them... I wanted to spend some money, too leh. Hahaha... so when we finally went into Seed just before we left, under the "viral influence" of that 猪婆雯, I bought a white-coloured shirt. Haha... still need to get a singlet to goes with it though... Hehehe... XD

猪婆雯，你是损友!!! 哈哈哈。。。不过，

"I'M LOVIN IT~~~" =P

dO I sEriOusLY loOk LIkE hIm? (?_?)

Haiyo... dunno since when my fren started saying that I look like the Korean star, Kim Jae Won... hmm.. seriously don't understand which part of me looks like him lo... He's kind of cute and my mum always say that he looks 傻傻的 when he smiles from ear to ear. Haha.. I do admit that from a certain angle I look only a bit bit like him... but not as exaggerated as my frens described la...

We went to Chili's yesterday for Khang Wern and Su Miin's birthday celebration... Wei Meng brought his sun-glass along. So I simply put on the sun-glass for fun and before I could do anything, my frenz started shouting "Kim Jae Won!!!" so loud that all the customers in the restaurant turned around and stared at me... Goodness... Really 老掉, man! Haha...

So, if u happen to be reading this blog now, here is a comparison of me and Mr. Kim Jae Won. Do let me know if I really look like him... So that I can start imitating his signature and become his imposter in the future... Mua haha... =P

"Earn Money, Earn Money, EARN MONEY~~~"

Samuel & Kevin

Keke... yes yes! u are right! Samuel & Kevin, the retail garment outlet that u can get in Mid Valley, One U, and some other shopping malls. So, what's so special about S&K? Hmm... I dunno, but I managed to get 2 of my new year outfit from the Mid Valley outlet when I went there to shop with some of the Mei CheeS, before CNY. They were having 40% storewide discount on that day. So, Khang Wern got herself a T-shirt and a long pants whereas Bao Bao was in time to grab 2 T-shirts and a long pants. The T-shirts that they bought were of the same design, but different colour. Myself? Hehe... I bought 2 sleeveless shirts, same design, but different colour. All the three of us were very satisfied with what we had got. =D

Too bad I didnt manage to get any pants. The size just didnt fit me well... I kept thinking of going back to try on the other designs and get myself a new pants if possible. So was Khang Wern. Haha... She regretted for not getting another orange-coloured T-shirt the other day. We just couldnt get S&K ouf of our mind le, Hahaha... XD

Anyway, I really like my two S&K sleevesless shirts very very much le... Even my mum also praised that the colour and the design of the shirts were nice oh!! Hehe... Oh ya!! By the way, S&K didnt pay me to promote their products here oh!! I did it out of my own will... Hahaha.. =P

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!~~~

Halo, all my dear frenz, how's Chinese New Year so far? Hehe... I am sure u guys enjoy yourself very much le, right? =)

Hmm... me myself am not so satisfied with my Ang Pow income this year though... Most of my relatives were not around. They either went abroad for vacation or didnt even bother to go visit each other. Furthermore, my grandmother just passed away last year... So, the old-time reunion gathering during CNY at my 4th uncle's place is also gone, together with my grandmother... To me, actually the number of Ang PowS that I received is not that important, even though I seriously need some money to get myself some stuffs. Keke... XD It is the feeling of getting together that matters! Other than this occasion, we dont really have much chances in which all of us are free to sit down and relax and to share about what we had experienced in the past year. This is indeed a good way of keeping in touch and staying close with our relatives and old frenz... It is just too bad that too many of us dont really understand and appreciate the true value of this festival...

Hehe... Today my mum's secondary school classmates came to visit her... One of them was so talkative and amusing la. She talked with all kind of expression on her face. Because of her daring characteristic, she is now a very successful career woman and has experienced loads of special events in her life. I actually found myself enjoyed listening to her. What a sporting and funny aunty... Haha... At the same time, I felt so envious that my mum and her old frenz could retain their closeness so many years after they parted... How I wish that the same thing will happen to me as well... I'm seriously afraid to lose contact with all my wonderful frenz after graduation... Hmm... Yup... How I wish......

Anyway, I am enjoying my non-stop eating CNY holidays now. Mind u, dont try to remind me how much weight I am going to gain after this, ok? Haha... XD And I am feeling so happy to be in my new year clothing. Finally dont have to abide to IMU dress code already. Hehe... =P Hope the same goes to u guys la!! =D

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!~~~~~~

LATE LIAO!!!!!!

Haha... yup... as indicated by the title, I was late to school last wednesday... late for 1 hour and 15 minutes, man!!! What made things worse was that it was a lab session... My first Pharmaceutical Microbiology lab session... I could just skip it if that was a lecture, but too bad it wasnt...

Sigh... blame it on my blur-ness le... I slept without setting my alarm clock on the previous night... Maybe I was too tired already... Didnt really have enough sleep for the past few days... So I didnt wake up automatically in the morning... I only managed to wake up when my labby (labby stands for lab partner, haha... XD), Hui Ming smsed to ask where I was... The sms tone woke me up actually... I knew something must be very wrong already the moment I woke up... Because I could see from my window that it was so bright out there... Not early morning anymore... I almost got a shock of my life when I saw the sms timed 9:52A.M. I jumped out of my bed literally and ran around my house to grab everything that I needed and didnt really need... Haha... I was so nervous that I didnt even comb my hair properly... Only took 5 minutes to get myself prepared before I "flew" to IMU... Yup... I ran all the way from my Vista C2 unit to IMU and crawled up the not-functioning-escalators till I reached the Multi Disciplinary Lab on 3rd floor, while cursing my muscle-aching legs (thanks to the frog jumps of Taekwondo training session on the previous night) for not being able to run faster... Of course, I had to face the music from my Microbiology lecturers, but I was lucky enough that the briefing session just ended before I entered the lab. So I managed to catch up with my bench mates and continue the rest of the experiment with them... PHEW...... =)

Although the experiment was kind of successful, but I wasnt happy. I felt really bad for making my bench mates worried that they might have to complete the experiment with one less group member. Also, I could have screwed up the whole experiment since I didnt attend the briefing. I kept bugging them to teach me the bacteria Gram-stain technique as well... Fortunately, my 3 wonderful bench mates never blame me. They were very nice and patient to me. Helped me out all the way somemore.

Hui Ming, Paik Ling and Geok Ying,

SORRY AND THANKS A WHOLE LOT!!!~~~

Felt really bad towards them... And that was my first time of being late to a lab session. I was still very lost and panic even after the lab session ended. Not hong cai at all during lunch hour. But once again, my fellow Mei CheeS managed to cheer me up and bring me back to life. I am so blessed to have you all here!!!!! Hehehe... =D

aM i RecOvERing???

Hmm... to all my dear frens, sorry if I was kind of down for the past 2 weeks... As what I had mentioned in my previous blog, loads of things happened recently... Some really hurt me badly, but it's ok, because I have learnt a lot, including how to protect myself from being hurt. Also, if not for these incidents, I wouldnt have realized how nice and sincere my true frens treated me.

My true frens out there, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!~~~~~

Because of them, I promise myself that I would try to recover as soon as possible. That's why here I am, the usual Hong Cai Mei Mei!!!!!~~~~~ hehehe...

The other day, one of my lambdaS, Kah Yee told me she could sense that I was not as happy as I used to be... She knew I was very vexed most of the time and she felt very upset to see me like that... Was so touched when I heard her saying that... Seriously, I could feel her concern and care... I didnt want to see her sad because of me... Most importantly, she gave me the strength to heal my wounds and stand up again...

Love you deep deep, Lim Kah Yee!! (wah..lambda dao...)

~with Kah Yee in Pizza Uno, Taipan~

Another person that I would like to mention her name here to confer my gratitude is, Khang Wern... We actually planned to go Mid Valley together on last Sunday, but she wasnt feeling well. So we cancelled the trip and ended up with girl's talk at vista C poolside in the end... She also could sense that I was having some problems and she had been asking me to share them with her for a few times already... But I refused to tell her, as I wasnt prepared, and since she was having her own problems as well, I didnt want to bother her with my problems anymore... Anyway, I managed to organise my thoughts and let everything go before I went to meet her up that day. I could finally see things clear... Then, she started sharing her thoughts and problems with me before asking me to tell her my problems once again... The ambience at the poolside was very suitable for heart-to-heart talk... I didnt disappoint her this time... Told her everything that I had in my mind... She agreed with me and gave me some wise advice, too... I felt kind of glad that my thoughts were recognised... and very relieve that I have finally spelled out my problems to someone very close to me...

Thank u so much, Khang Wern, my dearest lambda!!!

~with Khang Wern in Sushi Station, Sungei Wang~

Oh ya, we did go to Mid Valley, on Monday. Hahaha... and we managed to get some Chinese New Year clothing from Samuel & Kevin as well... 40% discount oh!!! Mua haha... =P

KHANG WERN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!!!!!~~~~~

*****MUACKS*****

My fiRst bLoG!!~~~

oh well... thanks to yi jie, i have become a blogger as well...

hmm... thought blogging was kinda... erm... a waste of time before this... hehe... cuz if there were anything that i would like to share, i preferred calling my close frenz out and talk face to face with them instead... but a lot of things happened recently... both good and bad things... things that warm my heart as well as things that hurt me badly... all these have made me think a lot lately... think of all that i have done so far... think of how i treat ppl... think of how ppl treat me back... think of whether my way of facing life is correct or not... i dun have an absolute answer for most of the questions actually... and until now, i havent shared any of these stories and my feelings with any of my close frenz... but i will, soon... when i am ready... not that i am trying to avoid anything, just that i havent had the chance to share... cuz lotsa things happened to my close frenz as well recently... they have their own problems to settle, too. so i thought it would also be nice if i were to share part of my feelings (that are share-able) via this blog.. and that's why i am here... hehe... u may not understand what i have written, but it's ok.. dun expect many of u to understand, too. u would understand it pretty well if u are the chosen one.. hahaha.. and i am sure u know who u are..

anyway, i dun have much time to continue writing anymore.. haha.. since it's going to be 6pm soon and the computer lab will be closed down pretty soon.. hehe... so, until i come up with my next post, see ya!!!