Nearly Scared the SH*T outta me!!!

OH MY GOSH!!!!

I guess if u were to ask me for the feeling of "cua4 sai4" (Hokkien) now, I could illustrate to u clearly and perfectly and full of facial expressions and hand gestures somemore!

Internet was down for the past few days in JBC. It was finally restored this morning. I immediately made use of it for everything I could think of, except for checking my Nemo mail inbox. I mean, come on lah! Of course I must give priority to Naruto manga first ma, no? It's of great importance to find out what happened to my leng chai Itachi leh!!

ANYWAY, just realized at around 4p.m. just now that I should show some love to Nemo as well. So, I logged into Nemo only to realize that Prof. Susan Pyne had sent me a mail last Friday. The mail was marked with an exclaimation mark (!) to indicate that it was of high importance... I opened it up immediately.

And I was notified that I uploaded the wrong file into the research-project-supposed-to-be category on SPIDER!! OMG!! I actually uploaded my PharmCare essays instead!! I checked on my SPIDER immediately and found that it was true!!! Smart!! WTF was I doing that time???

But Prof. Sue was super duper nice. She offered me the options of uploading my research project into the PDP section on SPIDER or sending a soft copy to her via Nemo. Only that this has to be done by the 28th of April, i.e. TODAY!!!!!

Plus, it's only an hour left before Prof. Sue would call it a day and balik rumah!! Lepas tu, matilah aku!!!

Panic attack!! So I quickly rumbled through the mess in my room to locate for my precious thumbdrive but I couldn't find it!! SH*T!!

Tachycardia tachycardia TACHYCARDIA!!!!!

Then suddenly I recalled that I had actually locked it away before my trip to Amsterdam + Brussels. So I found it at last.

Plucked it into my laptop, searched for the right file to upload, clicked on the "Upload" tab on Spider while replying to Prof. Sue and suddenly, DANG!! My laptop hang!!!

WTF???!!! At this point????? Must be because it was too relaxing for the past few days and then I loaded it with such an heavy amount of work out of sudden that it got an cardiac arrest probably.

Anyway, I restarted it, and waited impatiently for the system to boot. The clock was ticking like nobody's business!!! And my heart was racing like hell!! Adrenaline rush!! My hands were actually trembling!!

Wah lao eh!! It's the final year research project eh!! FINAL YEAR RESEARCH PROJECT!!!!! 40% of the MPharm degree credits, okay??!!! I'm so freaking doomed if this is screwed up!! It's a "F.A.I.L" straight!! I can happily skip the upcoming degree exams and go apply for extension of my visa instead liao... WTF!! *Shudders*

Then finally my laptop was ready and so I uploaded my research project to the PDP section as directed. Mana tau there wasn't enough space!! SHOOT!! Don't care liao lah!! I deleted my draft results that I uploaded last time without hesitation and replaced it with my research project.

Done!! But it was already 430p.m.!! I wondered if Prof. Sue would still be in her office?? So I quickly sent her a mail and asked for a reply if she happened to have received my research project. Thank God she replied promptly and assured me that the problem had been fixed.

PHEW~~~ What a relief...... *heart rate back to normal*

PROF. SUE, YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!!! XD

So, that's all about my scary experience just now. I still can't believe that I was so blur to have uploaded the wrong file!! My goodness!! I mean, I poured so much effort inon my research project (even though it still ended up like a piece of sh*t) and it meant so much to me!! How could I have been so careless???!!

I blame it on the deprivation of sleep!! Stayed up for 2 continuous nights to get it completed. It's no wonder that my mind wasn't functioning anymore. If Prof. Sue didn't notify me, I seriously would never have picked this up. Gosh... I really can't help but to express my gratitude towards her repeatedly here. Many thanks, Prof. Sue!! =)

Suffered from withdrawal syndromes for the past few days due to the abstain of internet access. Stupiak!! Dear internet, I miss u so so much!! Now that u are back, I must abuse u till gao gao!! Mua haha.. So ppl, Tata!!~ XD

P/S. So, my research project isn't screwed up afterall, which means I can still graduate, which means I still gotta study all the crazy stuffs for the degree exams (T_T)...

Perasan but I Have to Say

Yeah ppl, I know this is gonna sound extremely perasan. I also feel damn paisay to say it out here, but I think I just have to say it...

In case u guys, my dear frens, are preparing to do anything for me on my birthday (suppa perasan!), PLEASE DON'T.

Please don't waste time celebrating for me. Please don't waste time shopping for pressie. And please forgive me for being super perasan here. XD

Final year degree exam is just around the corner. So, stay focus, peeps!! Concentrate on studies!! As the "golden rule" of time management goes, "You gotta learn to prioritize!!" =)

Time is precious. We need to make full use of our free time to do important & constructive stuffs like aimless-youtube-ing, munching on snacks, stalking on leng chais/leng luis, gossipping, booking accomodations for poppa momma, reserving tickets for post-exam Europe getaway, & etc etc!!

Haha.. No, seriously, I'm not expecting anything. I just wish that we, the entire P105 batch, could graduate together on this coming June. It's ok if there is no celebration. It's ok if there is no pressie. Really don't wanna stress u guys up any further, okie? Seriously!! =)

So, let's jia you and work on our studies together for a few more weeks time, okie? Hek hek!! Gambate neh!! =)

P/S. I hope I don't get too many bombarding comments for my perasan-ness... (-_-")

P/P/S. Anyone knows if anyone else is interested in touring Spain + Portugal or London? Me wanna join!! Me so wanna join!!! =D

谢谢你 =)

两天前，收到了今年生日的第一份礼物。

来得虽然有点早，但是我心存感激。真的谢谢你！=)

看了卡片过后，觉得很感动。谢谢你的那份心意与用心。我都感受到了。

也正因为如此，我必须在这里写下以下这些我觉得你应该知道的东西。。。其实，从好久以前我就有这个想法了，只是不知道该怎么表达，也没有什么适合的时机。可是，我觉得如果我再不说，我就真的是很过分了。。。

我知道你对我好。我也知道我对不起你。但是我希望你知道，我的所作所为都是有苦衷的。

我不想再继续伤害你！！

我知道我已经伤害过你好几次了。我不希望自己再犯同样的错。

就以scientific一点的例子来做比喻吧。我不想造成false positive的发生，因为那实在是太残忍了！

所以，我必须表现得冷漠。所以，我必须不闻不问。所以，我甚至没有给予你作为朋友应有的最基本的关心。

我知道这样的我，同样是残忍的。

可是，与其制造一个海市蜃楼的假象让你陷下去，过后再亲手把它给毁灭掉，我认为眼下的这种残忍法，至少没那么可恨，也没那么可恶。对你的伤害，应该也是减少到最低点了吧？我是这么希望的。。。

所以，简单的来说，我只是想让你了解我如此“冷血”背后的原由。

我不是不关心你。有好几次当你发生事情的时候，我都想给你一个慰问的电话。只是，回头想想，这会不会又造成"false positive"的现象呢？于是，我止步了。于是，我什么都不做。。。

我真的觉得非常抱歉。

我不知道你能不能明白我的想法。但是，我只是不希望又多一次深深的伤害你。

连最基本的普通朋友式的关怀都没有给予你，我很内疚。请你原谅我。。。

一切，都是因为不想要有false positive的发生啊。。。

我知道你有看我部落格的习惯。看完了这篇，我希望你不会胡思乱想。我只是想把我的想法说给你听吧了。希望你能谅解。还有，要对你说，“对不起”。。。

你对我的好和关怀，我都会铭记在心的。

谢谢你。。。=)

am baCK AM BACK!! =D

Hey, peeps!! Am back from trip!! Touched down on the 14th actually but I was too lazy to blog. Tee hee hee.. Sorry lar.. =P Anyway, it was an awesome trip!! Will blog about it when I have the mood (which I most probably would never have as u all might have realized). Aiya, will refer u all to Ah Ming's blog when she blogs about it lar.. XD XD

Anyway, I went to KT's gig in SECC last night!! OH MY GOSH!!!!! It was fantastic let me tell ya.. I'm still not over that KT's fever that I have since after the gig. WooHoO~ Waiting to compile the photos Hanseloon took with mine. And I PROMISE that I'll definitely post an entry on this gig when the compilation is done 'cause KT was sOooOOooOoO amazing that it would not do her justice if I don't blog about it! So, watch out for that post, peeps!! =D

And btw, I dunno what happened but stupiak Imeem transformed my Aly & AJ's song "Division" into the 30seconds preview version. Kepo betul, right?!! I really don't like that 30secs whatsoever thingy. So, I might remove that song anytime soon. Cherish it when it's still on, aight? It's a beautiful song... =)

That Wan Tan Minah must be really happy now cause she kept complaining that the song was up for too long already and that I should replace it with another song... (-_-")

Anyway, this is just a wee update of what I've been up to lately. Gotta get back to DDS now. Eewww!! Can anybody pls enlighten me on what CVW's chapter is all about?????

HeRE I CoME!!!

Okay. Enough of emo stuffs. Decided to post another entry since this would most probably be the last time I blog before I set off to Brussels (and later on Amsterdam) tomorrow. Cannot be so irresponsible to leave an emo post as the last entry. Otherwise u peeps would come across this emo entry and get rather depressed as well whenever u check back to see if I have updated my blog.

Probably posting up an "happy" entry would make myself feel better, too. So, here u go! I have got something happy to share with u peeps!

I'm going to Brussels with Cheah Cheah Voon, Ah Bi Bi, and Law Mai Fan tomolo! Will touch down at about 2.45p.m. and we will take a train to Amsterdam immediately. Most probably will arrive around late evening. So, what else to do but visit the Red Light District??!!! Huhuhu... Super Sexcited-nya!!~ =P

Will follow a day tour to visit the windmill, clog factory, cheese factory, fishing village & etc. on the second day. Heineken former brewery is closed to public until 2010! Kanasai eh!! So unfair to us alcoholics!! XD Anyway, will try to visit one of the main museums after coming back from the day trip.

Then, on the third day, we will visit another one of the main museums in the morning. After that, it would be the highlight of this trip, i.e. to the tulip festival in Keukenhoft Garden!!! OoohH la la~~ I can't wait!! Tulips are so beautiful and elegant!! =D Will try to make it to another museum after visiting the tulips garden. Hehehe...

Will cycle around the city in the morning on the fourth day. Then, we will catch a train back to Brussels. Well, basically we have yet to figure out what to do in Brussels. But, given our aunty nature, I guess we would probably spend most of our time hopping from one flea market to another ba. Kakaka... Might take up the river cruise as well!! Hehe.. =)

Will come back to Glasgow on the 14th morning. U can come to the Prestwick airport to welcome us if u wish to, but I don't guarantee a souvenir for ya though. XD XD

OH YA!! I was sooooo freaking happy this afternoon!! I finally received the tickets to KT Tunstall's gig in SECC on this coming 19th of April!! WooHoo~ She's such a great live performer.. I can't wait!! =D Let me show off a few pictures of the tickets below. Kekeke... =P

Ooooh~ A letter for me!! =D

Tada!! Tickets to KT's gig have finally arrived!! =D

Close-up!! Huhuhu.. =D

And a reminder to me & Hanseloon for being char siew.. T_T

Oh yes! Am going to be the brightest lamp post throughout the gig...

Ah Ming is coming over for dinner later. Hehehe.. Am sure we would have a great time! =) Another thing I am sure of is that she would definitely claim that she's real full and has eaten a lot after only several mouthful of rice and dishes. (-__-")

Well, I seriously feel much better after posting this entry. Hehe.. Thank u my darling blog!! XD

Ooh ooh!! Btw, we will be having a "uniform" day in Amsterdam! That is, we are all going to wear the same GAP panty on the same day!! Mua ahaha... Too much information I know.. XD

Am looking forward to our bimbo trip already, chee muis!! =D

Till then, see ya peeps!! Miss ya!! Don't miss me too much though! XD

无言。。。

有没有人可以告诉我，为什么在我应该觉得兴致勃勃，雀跃不已的时候，我竟然会有这么落寞，孤单，以及无法解释的伤感呢？

突然间似乎能了解到孙燕姿《我不难过》里那句“我不难过，只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂”的感受与意境了。

唉。。。为什么人总是这么善变又难以捉摸的动物呢？而且，这种改变往往都是往坏的一方面趋进。

看着你的改变，我好心疼。。。难到这就是现时吗？难道事实永远都是伤人的吗？

我想你一定想不到这么一点芝麻绿豆的小事，会让我这么不开心吧？说真的，我也不明白我是搞什么的。你可以说我小气，但是你不得不承认，这一切，你没有推托的理由。你的态度上出了问题。你虽然知道，也嚷着要改过，但我似乎没有看见成果。。。

我知道这不容易，所以我容忍你。毕竟，我自己也没什么资格来说你的不是。但是，在你伤害到身边你所爱的人的感受时，你是否更应该反省自己到底是做对还是做错了呢？

我真的是很看不过眼。。。难道是我嫉妒吗？我不知道。。。我不能说我没有，因为我并非什么圣人，我也不会假装我是。。。但是这当下的不愉快，我可以很肯定的说，这绝对不是嫉妒所造成的。。。

我觉得我的心正在淌着血，眼泪虽然流不出来，但是它却从我的心滴了下来。。。

有时，我真的没办法不认为你的改变是他造成的。你听了这番话过后，应该会觉得很难过加超不爽。。。所以我也不想多说。。。

哈，说真的，我也不知道我写了这一大篇东西想要表达的是什么。。。但是，我真的真的极度非常想念以前的那个你，你知道吗？你不会知道，因为你根本不看我的部落格。

天啊，我该怎么办？？我真的不希望你会变成我不喜欢的那一类人。但是，我似乎无能为力！能说的，我都说了。世界不是因为你一个人在转，你了解吗？

你是善良的。。我知道。。而且，我还是一样喜欢你。但是，有时候，停下脚步，想一想身边的人，好吗？

其实，你也并没有怎么样。。。我相信，对他人的伤害，你都是无意的。想必，如果你知道你伤害了我，你也会觉得内疚万分。或许，我想说的，真的就只是，

我好想念好想念以前的那个你。。。

我恨我自己无法让时光倒流。。。因为我真的好想念你。。。真的。。。好想念你。。。我好想念你。。。你知道吗？但是我找不回我想念的那个你，我该怎么办？

我改怎么办？？？

为什么现时永远都要这么残酷？？？好想回到以前那段单纯，思想简单的日子。。。

你愿意陪着我，一起踏上这段旅途吗？

L@uGHed oUt LOuD!!!~~

This is a song by Kate Nash, called "Stitching Leggings". My goodness!! The lyrics are soooo hilarious!!~ Try figuring the lyrics out on ur own before looking at the actual one below the vid... XD Love Kate Nash!! Wish I could play the piano as good as her... =)

Kate Nash

Stitching Leggings

I was sewing my leggings back together
But not very well

I was standing by the dashboard
When the plate it sort of just fell
Sometimes I think that I'm lucky
And other times I don't
When most of the time I just think

Well I'm lucky that I don't have all the power in the world so I can't fuck everything else up x 2
Well at least I'm lucky I don't have all the power in the world so I can't fuck everything else up

I was making the dinner
When it sort of just burned
I was walking down the stairs when I tripped
Fell to the bottom and break my foot and
It really fucking hurt

Well at least I'm lucky that I don't have all the power in the world so I can't fuck everything else up x 3

Sometimes I think that you hate me
And other times I think you that you think I'm endearing
Sometimes I just don't know you at all
Even though I'd like to think I was a bit of a know it all
Sometimes I just can't work you out
Even though I'd like to know what you were about

Well at least I'm lucky I don't have all the power in the world so I can't fuck everything else up x6
Well at least I don't have all the power in the world so I just can't fuck everything else up
At least I don't have all the power in the world so I just can't fuck everything else up

Well at least I'm lucky I don't have all the power in the world so I can't fuck everything else up

P/S. This is a true story of Kate Nash!! She really fell from the stairs and broke her foot and that's when she started composing! LOL!! So cute!! XD