kIND@ bORed hEre...

Craved for "dao sah beng" so bad the other day. So I went to The Summit Parade Batu Pahat to get some. Mana tau the shop sudah "chap lap"!!!!! I went around the floor it used to be in to see if it had shifted but it was up to no good.. =(

But there was a surprise discovery. I saw a music store playing this MV:

Like Whoa by Aly & AJ!!

Whoa!! I never knew Batu's music sense could be so "in" wei!! Seeing that these gals aren't really that famous, I was really surprised that there are actually ppl in Batu (except for me) who knew them!!

Honestly, Malaysia's music sense is quite advanced. At least we Malaysians are kepo enough that we know most of the pop celebrities and songs on the market. Guess that's because the section most of us never miss when reading a newspaper is Entertainment. Am I not right? =)

Shopped for CDs in HMV Glasgow last time. The "Best-selling albums" were those that I listened to when I was in Taylor's!! Robbie Williams, Ronan Keating & etc.!!!!!! Kill me!! I wonder if it's a UK's or Glasgow's problem. Cause other European countries seem much better eh... When I was in Greece, I even heard Kenny G version of Jay Chow's "AnJing" song in their metro station!!! WOW!! So "in"!!

I chatted with some of our Glaswegian classmates during one boring EBM session. I opened my eyes big big & told them excitedly, "Oh Gosh!! Rihanna is coming to SECC!!!!!" Still remember clearly the "Huh?? Who's that?" expression on their faces and their polite smiles.

Ouch!! I was acting like a total idiot if not because one of them (only one!!) said in a as-a-matter-of-fact tone, "Oh, Rihanna.". Full stop!! And they turned to each other to discuss on the progression of their research project like nothing just happened!!! What??! Don't they even feel a bit bit excited that some huge celebrity is coming to their town??? Oh well, at least from being an idiot I was promoted to a retarded fella who cared more over American's music industry than my studies...

Why ah why ah? If Rihanna were to come to Batu Pahat, I would go all the way out to see her loh.. I mean, I am not a huge fan of hers lah. Not to mention that "Ella Ella Eh Eh" and the "Pls Don't Stop The.. Pls Don't Stop The Music" songs are rather retarded loh... XP It's the celebrity factor!! The "Oh wow!! I saw Rihanna live and took pictures of her!!!" factor!! No?

Don't Twitch Ur Lips the Wrong Way

Half of Dad's right eye was suddenly covered with blood shots the night before yesterday's. Dad suffers from slight glaucoma. In fact, both of his eyes were found to be infected around 3 weeks ago. He was prescribed with 2 months of antibiotic eye ointment. The worsening of condition in spite of constant application of medication got him extremely worried. So were mom & I.

Accompanied Dad to the hospital the next morning.

Since Dad had no appointment that day, he rushed to the counter and asked the nurses on duty if they could arrange for an emergency appointment to see the doctor immediately. Dad told them he was very very worried because of the redness and that he had glaucoma. He even removed his glasses to show them the blood shots.

Not only did they refuse, one stupiak nurse there farking SMIRK!!

What?!! What's so funny with my dad's blood-shots-filled eye? Have u no sympathy? Smirk what fark lah?!!

Damn angry eh!! Felt like punching her in the face!! Argh!!

What kinda stupiak attitude was that??

In the end Dad was arranged to be among the last to be seen by the doctor, for he had no appointment and we were already considered late by the time we registered. Waited for almost 4 hours in the hospital doing nothing.

Beh song!!

Luckily the doctor who examined Dad was very very nice. Listened to Dad's complaint and examined him carefully. Was very patient as well.

Dr. Noor ruled out the possibility of hypertension & worsening of glaucoma after examining Dad's eye. Dr. Noor said the redness was due to injury of the blood vessel, just like the normal bruises on skin. Maybe Dad exerted too much strength and the pressure leads to rupture of a small blood vessel and thus bleeding. But it wasn't serious so Dr. Noor asked us not to worry. She also prescribed some medications for Dad.

Phew... What a relief... Thank Goodness Dad was ok.. =)

Think all healthcare proffessionals should look up to Dr. Noor loh! Be empathy, patient, and most importantly, ready to serve without discrimination loh!! Giving a farking smirk when patients tell u their suffers wouldn't help in any sense!! Sh*t!!

P/S. Dad's eye's condition has improved. Thanks very much for all the regards and concerns expressed. =)

cONvO PorTR@It =P

K k... Enough emo-ing.. Keep it aside first. Arrival of convo portrait has totally lightened me up. The original digital version is too big a size liao. Have compressed it. See see..

The fake "bookshelf" abit de senget XD

Think they have got the job well done. At least I didn't look that fat lah. Chin sharp sharp like that. Keke.. Chic pox scars also removed liao. =P

Actually the portrait was supposed to arrive in September de loh. Most of my frens already got theirs. So I called Fotorex up yesterday to check if mine was lost on the way. The lady who spoke to me was very aunty lah. Haha.. but she was very nice. She kept apologizing and promised that my portrait would arrive today.

And it really did arrive this afternoon!! A super big pack including a frame!! Hmm.. I remembered paying for the RM90 package leh. Thought there is no complimentary frame? Also hor, there are three 3R-sized photos given as well. Thought the package only includes 2? AND, the portrait was of canvas material wor!! I thought only the RM130 package comes in canvas? Tak paham betul! ?_?

But it's not like I'm unhappy with that lah.. Kakaka.. Untung dao!! XD

Maybe that aunty was abit blur or what. Or maybe she was guilty for the late delivery that's why she gave me a good deal as compensation? Kakaka.. Hmm.. or maybe they are indeed complimentary. Dunno leh.

Anyway hor, I think Fotorex's packages are relatively value for money loh. At least the RM90 one is lah. Unlike the Strathclyde one which is darn freaking expensive and with no frame and NO touch-up loh. Hehe.. So, juniors, if anyone of u is reading this, just go ahead when it's ur turn next year ba!! Unless u have a fren whose family runs photography business like our fabulous Wei Meng Koko lah. Then of course it's much more worthy to close the deal with them. They would definitely charge a lower price and do a better job. Just like our Wei Meng Koko who received excellent review for the Strathclyde convo photoes he did for our batchmates. If Wei Meng Koko offers a deal to u all hor, fai fai accept ah!! Haha.. XD

K lah K lah. Dinner time dy. Hungry. Bye!

Hypersensitivity

"Sometimes you're just too sensitive..."

Well, I KNOW I'm very sensitive sometimes...

Not the first time being told this already,

but it still hurt

especially if it comes from the ones u care most.

I too HATE myself for being so sensitive,

but I dunno what I can do about it.

I wonder if my sensitivity is caused by caring too much. I care about how others feel. I dun wan anyone to feel hurt. I want to be considerate. I want everyone around me to feel happy. I'm just trying my best!

But being caring = being sensitive to ppl's happiness and sadness. But being sensitive can sometimes lead to hypersensitivity. And hypersensitivity ALWAYS leads to misunderstanding.

When ppl need to be cared, u try to provide them with that. But sometimes ppl appreciate, sometimes they don't. And when they don't, they find it a bother. Maybe I tried too hard? I dunno.

Yes, I understand what I feel best for others might not be what they want.

I wish I could be care-free. I wish I could be ignorant. I wish I could be indifferent towards everyone and everything around me.

But wouldn't that make me a cold-blooded creature? What's more, experiences already prove to me that when I become indifferent, ppl think I don't care for them anymore. Ppl feel hurt.

Ppl EXPECT u to understand!!!

Care also wrong, don't care also wrong. What the??? Got such thing like care abit bit and don't care abit bit ah?? When's the right time to care and to not??

Stuck in the middle of nowhere. Just like my current situation. Idle in life. Not moving forward nor going backward. Just stuck in a stage of life that I'm not totally comfortable with. Emptiness. With no aim.

I think the frustration, uncertainty, fear, pressure, and problems bothering me are the causes of my hypersensitivity lately. I feel depressed. I'm upset most of the time.

Just because I don't say it out it doesn't mean I've got nothing to worry about!

No suitable one is there to tell... No one is there to understand...

Trying too hard to act tough and care for others at the same time. I'm tired.

Could somebody pls tell me what to do? To being indifferent but caring? To being caring but not over sensitive? To not being annoying??

L.O.S.E.R

P/S.: Xin, if u happen to be reading this, do u know if there's anything to listen to or chant at to find peace in mind? If u don't, could u pls ask ur mum on my behalf? Being a devoted Buddhist, I believe she knows something about this. Thanks very much...

iT's @LL AbOUt hWOoD

Helo!! Me Maria. Just done grocery shopping with Ma'am. It's teatime now. So Maria has some free time to blog. XD

Maria masak another new dish 2 days ago. Chai Po (sweet radish) baked hwish. Maria tiru the recipe from a cooking book. Rasa not bad, tetapi abit too sweet lah. Maria think it's the problem of the chai po. Maybe next time should use the salty type instead.

Macam fish pie hor? Sebenarnya 3 slices of thick slicked hwish.

OK OK. Switch identity to Pei Ling. Got serious stuff to tell.

It's Raya yesterday. So Maria was off for the day. Dad & bro-in-law went to tapao "dai chao" for dinner. Haiyo. Not enough lah. Our whole family big size + big eaters mah. I wasn't even 20% full when all the dishes were already gone.. =(

Not full = bad mood de loh. So, I screamed (jokingly lah):

"KOKO!!!!! I'm still hungry!!!!! BUY ME ZINGER BURGER!!!!!!!!!!~~ Craving!!"

Was expecting either reaction number 1:

"Haaaaaaaar? HAHAHA! Go eat shit lah!"

or maybe reaction number 2:

"Walau!! Still not full meh? U think u still very slim ah?"

when I heard

"OK. No problem. What else u want?"

and he really went out right after that to get me the burger!! OOH!! Happy!!! =D

Was very very de touched loh. He seldom pamper me so much de loh. Hehehe... =) See see my ai4 xin1 Zinger burger!! ^^

Ooh huhu... Suspense.. What's inside?

Tada!!!!! Yum yum!!! Almost 2 year since I last had Zinger burger eh!! *Slurp* =P

THANK YOU, KOKO!!!!! =D

Hehe.. Mum cooked meehoon soup this afternoon. Think it looks very de tempting & seductive. Took a picture of it.

Oosh!! Yum!! Mama, cook for me, pls!!!!! *drool*

OK lah. Maria wanna go eat her kuih liao. Later gotta go sweep floor & cook dinner liao. Tata!!

P/S. Good luck to all of u who start work tomolo!! Whoa!! Another stage of life!! Congrats!! =)