DAMN!! Caffeine Effect...

Gosh... I hope there is nothing wrong with me...

Was supposed to go Khang Wern's place to stay overnight yesterday, since it's been a long while I last had a pillow talk with her. Too bad there was something troubling her and she insisted me not to go over for she didnt want to affect my mood. So, I decided to brew a cup of coffee and stay up late to study. Have almost lost contact with my fellow bookworm frens already. Kaka... XD

Had strong determination to study actually. Who knows that stupiak caffeine started to bother me again. Could feel my "thump thump" beating super fast as tachycardia takes over... I soon found myself not being able to concentrate on my studies. Part of the reasons being my caffeine-induced-imagination that had started to run wild. Tried to control it but I just couldnt... Forced myself to sleep but the stupiak caffeine had prevented me from doing so...

Sitting on the chair, I just couldnt stop thinking about that particular matter... I kept bombarding myself with questions in my mind...

"What's the possibility?"

"Is it really true?"

"So what my frens said are true?"

"Am I running away from reality?"

"What happend to my own principles?"

"Have I been confused by others?"

"Why am I confused?"

"Is it because of caffeine that I am thinking so much now?"

"Why this matter does not seem to bother me on normal days?"

"Did I take things too seriously?"

"Is it because of the unpleasant experience lately that causes me to

bother so much about this matter?"

"Maybe I am just not too good in handling it?"

"Maybe I need someone to help me to sort this out?"

"But I seriously do not want it to happen! How?"

Well... you see? All these questions kept jumping into my mind whenever I tried to focus on the book. I was carried away by trying to find an answer for each of the questions...

"LEAVE ME ALONE!!! I WANNA STUDY AND I WANNA SLEEP!!!"

Most of the time when I drink coffee, this stupiak caffeine effect not only leads to tachycardia and extraordinary excitement, but uncontrollable mind as well. I would start talking nonsense and at extremely fast speed somemore. During my Taylor's days, even lecturers could tell when I took coffee from my unusual behaviours. Haha... Amazing, right?

I finally managed to sleep at 5a.m. in the morning. I am glad to find out that today I have not been thinking about that particular matter anymore ever since I woke up. Hehe... Therefore, in conclusion, it's should be the stupiak caffeine that had driven me abnormal last night gua... Or, was it? Hmm... Yi Jie and Lu Yi always hate to hear this "gua gua" sound. Kaka... (^O^)

So frenz, if any of these days you find me to be different from my usual self, yeah... you are most probably right. I have been on caffeine again. Haha... Give myself three dots... (-_-"')