TGIF!!!!!~~~

TGIF!!!!!~~~

Aaaaaah aaaaahhh!! Wow Wooooow!! Weeeee Weeeeeeee!! Woooooh wooooooooooooH!!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~

Relief eh!! I'm both mentally & physically tired dy.. Need a rest.. This morning almost couldn't get out of bed. Whole body aching... Like an Ah Po..

But note, I said relief. Not happy. Yeah, I dunno why but I'm not all that happy with the weekend's arrival. Feel abit uneasy and anxious in fact. Can't sit still. Kept sighing. Abit hot temper. Weird huh? That shouldn't be my reaction towards my first precious weekend off what...

Am I too stressed out? I shouldn't be what.. Ppl said HBP very free geh?

Anyway, gotta update abit on my working life here...

Offically started working on 4th Nov. 3rd just went there fill forms & chit-chat XD So will regard 4th Nov as my first day of work from this point onwards.

Was sent to inpatient department. Well, first day was disastrous. Was C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E.L.Y lost. Yes, I am not being humble here. Felt like a piece of shit. Trolley full of Rx started coming in the moment I arrived. EVERYONE expected me to know what I was supposed to do!!

But the fact is, I just stood there helplessly. Staring blindly at the dispensers, PRPs, and FRPs rushing about here & there, having no idea wth were they doing. No one even cared to bother me. Probably they thought I was supposed to know what's going on...

Then I approached & consulted a PRP. She showed me the right way to handle a Rx and filled in all the requested medications so professionally. I looked at her with admiration only to find out later that she's a UKM graduant and it was her FIRST day in the inpatient department as well!!!!! WHAT???!! I mean, I know local students are damn geng lah, but I never expect them to know sooooooooooo much eh!!! I was like a piece of trash standing next to her...

Lucky she was nice. So I followed her to handle a few Rx and tried to start handling one on my own. Gosh. It was tough. I couldn't even locate the drugs! U see, some were arranged in alphabetical order, some according to diseases, some on another cupboard, some in the back room, some were simply placed on the table, and some under the table!! @_@???

How organize can they be? I wonder if all hosp. are the same or it's just HBP?

As if this wasn't bad enough, I was told that List A drugs have to be counter-signed before dispensing and certain dispenses drugs have to be recorded. Blurred to the max. So I asked, " What are List A drugs?" only to get "Very hard to say. Something like expensive drugs that can only be given by specialist." So I continued, "So is there anywhere that I can read up on this?" and got "No. Only by experience..." (o_O")

Then I pursued, "So what are the drugs that have to be recorded?" which again I got "Expensive drugs"...

HOW ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW LAH????? It's not like they label the drugs with their respective prices..

So I kept asking questions regarding the location of drugs, whether they have to be counter-signed, how much should I dispense (can't give out too many drugs of which the stocks are running low of which I had no idea at all), blah blah blah blah blah blah...

Was a complete annoyance. Kept interrupting others' work by asking stupiak questions. Felt extremely useless + embarassed. A burden to the entire department. They could work faster and better without my existence...

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

Was in a very bad mood by the end of the day. When it was about 5p.m., there was nothing much left to do. All the FRPs, PRPs, and dispensers sat down to relax and chat. I was so tensed up that I had no mood to join them. I walked around the dispensary, trying to get myself familiar with the location of the drugs...

Oh, did I mention that they label some drugs according to generic name and some according to brand name?? Did I mention that even doctors prescribed drugs in brand name?? Flagyl sounds very much like bulk laxative to me but it's Metronidazole in fact. Diamox = Acetylzolamide, Gelusil = Magnisium Trisylicate & etc etc etc...

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Was extremely frustrated & depressed at the end of the day. Mum knew I had had a hard day so she made me super super nice dinner to console me. Hehe.. so sweet of her... At least that made my day much better.. =)

Lucky thing was that my last minute hardwork din go to waste. Starting to catch up on the 2nd day. Did everything faster and gathered up enough courage to answer phonecalls from the ward (even though most of the time I couldn't answer and would just pass the phone to the FRPs). I also asked much lesser questions, found most of the drugs, and even pointed out the location of some to another PRP when he couldn't find it! Aaaaahhh... The sense of achievement... =)

Then I started following FRP to the ward to do bedside counselling. Had seen them giving counselling on eye drops, aerochamber, and Humapen so far liao... =)

Volunteered to handle Imprest Floor Stock. Can now do it on my own liao.. Also, learned about the procedure of dispensing DD today.. =)

At least I don't feel so blur anymore...

BUT, I still make mistakes when dispensing first-time-handled drugs. Just kena tegur-ed today for not recording the dispensing of some "expensive" drugs and for dispensing too much (din realize 1 box of Clexane contains 2amps). Felt bad lah of course. But no one really took the initiative to teach me starting from the first day leh. Mostly, I learned on my own, by asking and by making mistakes. But I hate learning from mistakes... The feeling of making mistakes and kena tegur is awful... Moreover, life's at stake!!!

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

I paling hate the "only-experience-can-tell" part... It renders me helpless...

I wish the FRPs could guide us (PRP) more. They are nice and friendly. I am glad to have them. The only thing is that, they know the PRP are incompetent and lack essential knowledge, but they seemed to take no action about it leh. They always look very busy. So I didn't even dare to bother them with my stupiak questions. Was hoping that maybe one day when they are free they would teach.

But know what? I saw one of them playing Bejeweled-look-alike game in the resting room today... (-__-") Maybe just taking a short break after a long stressful day ba... Hmm...Dunno leh... Hope I would learn more as time goes by le...

Anyway, am lazy to continue this super long post liao.. Haha.. I'm OK dy le.. I will jia you de.. The passion is still there. I will make sure I work very hard de. I promised myself to be a good pharmacist already. So I must thrive to achieve it!! Let's work towards our targets ba, all IMU-Mpharm-graduated PRPs!!!!! HEK!!!!! =)

P/S. I super agree with Ming in hating IMU. But I'm more specific lah. I only hate IMU Mpharm program coordinators. Think Bpharm is quite OK lah...