Extreme Ramblings

Colleagues actually think that I'm a quiet and super guai girl, who stay home most of the time and doesn't go around partying, and even if I do go out I have to reach home by, say 10p.m., in order to obey to the curfew set by my parents. They also assume I'm the type of girl who has never been to a pub before and would go drunk immediately at a single sip of Heineken, not to mention hard liquor like Chivas.

Aaaaawww, don't u find them cute?

Miss all my dear frens who know my true colour so well suddenly... =)

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The super huge McD (erm, in Batu's standard lah) with drive-thru service is officially in operation today!!!!! Woohoo!!~ Looks kinda grand, doesn't it? =D

Sorry the pic is abit sucky. Haha.. Took it from the car =P

Miss Hu Yi Jie, at last Batu's McD is in the same position as ur Sitiawan's!! HMPH!!! Lol... XD XD

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Our P105 senior, Ai Lynn, was transferred to my department last week. Gosh, I was seriously delighted!! Finally someone whom I can talk to about the devilish Mr. Pepsi (too bad she actually finds Mr. Pepsi "hen hao!!") and the beloved Scotland and receive some appropriate responds!! Hehe...

I really have to thank her here, for making my life much more colourful than it used to be a week ago, and for inviting me and Pei Fung out for lunch thus saving us from the everyday-same-lauk-money-sucking canteen. Thanks very much, Ai Lynn!! =)

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Jeng jeng~~ The much feared Thalidomide!! Hmm.. Very plain hor? Doesn't look all that intimidating, no? Should at least have a shocking pink coating like EES what. Glamour sikit ma.. =P

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The handbag I bring to work everyday. Yeah, me with a handbag?? Hard to imagine, right? But can't possibly bring my sling bag to work eh ma. Am gonna look like a freak!! Haha..

The handbag is from Polo. Got 70% discount. Kaka.. Damn cheap loh and that's why I bought it. Not because I liked it so much that I gave in to temptation or whatsoever stuffs like that loh.. Sigh.. Aunty dao.. XP

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Last but not least, the vintage-looking Kang Kang!!!!! XD XD Looks like he's from the 70's, no? Eh eh, it wasn't me, ok? It was mum's idea!! The spec belongs to her hor!!! XD XD XD

I never knew "meh" could be used like this...

Below is an article I plagiarized from Yahoo! News at http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081117/ap_on_re_eu/eu_britain_new_word.

"'Meh': Apathetic expression enters dictionary

LONDON – At least someone is excited about "meh."

The expression of indifference or boredom has gained a place in the Collins English Dictionary after generating a surprising amount of enthusiasm among lexicographers.

Publisher HarperCollins announced Monday the word had been chosen from terms suggested by the public for inclusion in the dictionary's 30th anniversary edition, to be published next year.

The origins of "meh" are murky, but the term grew in popularity after being used in a 2001 episode of "The Simpsons" in which Homer suggests a day trip to his children Bart and Lisa.

"They both just reply 'meh' and keep watching TV," said Cormac McKeown, head of content at Collins Dictionaries.

The dictionary defines "meh" as an expression of indifference or boredom, or an adjective meaning mediocre or boring. Examples given by the dictionary include "the Canadian election was so meh."

The dictionary's compilers said the word originated in North America, spread through the Internet and was now entering British spoken English.

"This is a new interjection from the U.S. that seems to have inveigled its way into common speech over here," McKeown said. "Internet forums and e-mail are playing a big part in formalizing the spellings of vocal interjections like these. A couple of other examples would be 'hmm' and 'heh.'

"Meh" was selected by Collins after it asked people to submit words they use in conversation that are not in the dictionary. Other suggestions included jargonaut, a fan of jargon; frenemy, an enemy disguised as a friend; and huggles, a hybrid of hugs and snuggles."

Hmm... Interesting, isn't it? I always thought "meh" is a Malaysian- or Singaporean-created noun being abused for the expression of doubt. For example, "Like that one meh?". Just like how I feel like asking, "Got ppl use 'meh' like this one meh?" now. Erm.. U got me?

Wild Thoughts

Realized it's quite easy to commit suicide in the satellite pharmacy.

See ya.. Drugs like Phenytoin, Theophylline, Digoxin and etc. are all within reach. Drugs of which a slight tiny bit of overdosage could lead to fatal consequences.

And these drugs could be given without the need of a pakar's counter-sign.

If I were to take a few more out while filling in prescriptions and hide them in my pocket and send them all down my throat with some water over lunch time...

Nyek nyek nyek nyek nyek......

Shit... I must have been too stressed out at work dy...

P/S. Just got to know today that a box of Olanzapine (28 biji) costs around RM400-500!!!!! And gov hosps are giving them out at the cost of a symbolic RM1 only!!!!! If u happen to be a gov servant, u dun even have to pay a single cent!! OMG!!!!! Malaysian's gov hosp ROCKS!!!!! XD =P

Am I progressing too fast?

Catching up with my work dy.

Learning more & more stuffs by days.


But......


I'm starting to lose faith,

and passion...


......


Why do I have to head straight to the last stage without even going through a brief period of enjoying-my-current-job moment???

Sigh...

TGIF!!!!!~~~

TGIF!!!!!~~~

Aaaaaah aaaaahhh!! Wow Wooooow!! Weeeee Weeeeeeee!! Woooooh wooooooooooooH!!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~

Relief eh!! I'm both mentally & physically tired dy.. Need a rest.. This morning almost couldn't get out of bed. Whole body aching... Like an Ah Po..

But note, I said relief. Not happy. Yeah, I dunno why but I'm not all that happy with the weekend's arrival. Feel abit uneasy and anxious in fact. Can't sit still. Kept sighing. Abit hot temper. Weird huh? That shouldn't be my reaction towards my first precious weekend off what...

Am I too stressed out? I shouldn't be what.. Ppl said HBP very free geh?

Anyway, gotta update abit on my working life here...

Offically started working on 4th Nov. 3rd just went there fill forms & chit-chat XD So will regard 4th Nov as my first day of work from this point onwards.

Was sent to inpatient department. Well, first day was disastrous. Was C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E.L.Y lost. Yes, I am not being humble here. Felt like a piece of shit. Trolley full of Rx started coming in the moment I arrived. EVERYONE expected me to know what I was supposed to do!!

But the fact is, I just stood there helplessly. Staring blindly at the dispensers, PRPs, and FRPs rushing about here & there, having no idea wth were they doing. No one even cared to bother me. Probably they thought I was supposed to know what's going on...

Then I approached & consulted a PRP. She showed me the right way to handle a Rx and filled in all the requested medications so professionally. I looked at her with admiration only to find out later that she's a UKM graduant and it was her FIRST day in the inpatient department as well!!!!! WHAT???!! I mean, I know local students are damn geng lah, but I never expect them to know sooooooooooo much eh!!! I was like a piece of trash standing next to her...

Lucky she was nice. So I followed her to handle a few Rx and tried to start handling one on my own. Gosh. It was tough. I couldn't even locate the drugs! U see, some were arranged in alphabetical order, some according to diseases, some on another cupboard, some in the back room, some were simply placed on the table, and some under the table!! @_@???

How organize can they be? I wonder if all hosp. are the same or it's just HBP?

As if this wasn't bad enough, I was told that List A drugs have to be counter-signed before dispensing and certain dispenses drugs have to be recorded. Blurred to the max. So I asked, " What are List A drugs?" only to get "Very hard to say. Something like expensive drugs that can only be given by specialist." So I continued, "So is there anywhere that I can read up on this?" and got "No. Only by experience..." (o_O")

Then I pursued, "So what are the drugs that have to be recorded?" which again I got "Expensive drugs"...

HOW ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW LAH????? It's not like they label the drugs with their respective prices..

So I kept asking questions regarding the location of drugs, whether they have to be counter-signed, how much should I dispense (can't give out too many drugs of which the stocks are running low of which I had no idea at all), blah blah blah blah blah blah...

Was a complete annoyance. Kept interrupting others' work by asking stupiak questions. Felt extremely useless + embarassed. A burden to the entire department. They could work faster and better without my existence...

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

Was in a very bad mood by the end of the day. When it was about 5p.m., there was nothing much left to do. All the FRPs, PRPs, and dispensers sat down to relax and chat. I was so tensed up that I had no mood to join them. I walked around the dispensary, trying to get myself familiar with the location of the drugs...

Oh, did I mention that they label some drugs according to generic name and some according to brand name?? Did I mention that even doctors prescribed drugs in brand name?? Flagyl sounds very much like bulk laxative to me but it's Metronidazole in fact. Diamox = Acetylzolamide, Gelusil = Magnisium Trisylicate & etc etc etc...

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Was extremely frustrated & depressed at the end of the day. Mum knew I had had a hard day so she made me super super nice dinner to console me. Hehe.. so sweet of her... At least that made my day much better.. =)

Lucky thing was that my last minute hardwork din go to waste. Starting to catch up on the 2nd day. Did everything faster and gathered up enough courage to answer phonecalls from the ward (even though most of the time I couldn't answer and would just pass the phone to the FRPs). I also asked much lesser questions, found most of the drugs, and even pointed out the location of some to another PRP when he couldn't find it! Aaaaahhh... The sense of achievement... =)

Then I started following FRP to the ward to do bedside counselling. Had seen them giving counselling on eye drops, aerochamber, and Humapen so far liao... =)

Volunteered to handle Imprest Floor Stock. Can now do it on my own liao.. Also, learned about the procedure of dispensing DD today.. =)

At least I don't feel so blur anymore...

BUT, I still make mistakes when dispensing first-time-handled drugs. Just kena tegur-ed today for not recording the dispensing of some "expensive" drugs and for dispensing too much (din realize 1 box of Clexane contains 2amps). Felt bad lah of course. But no one really took the initiative to teach me starting from the first day leh. Mostly, I learned on my own, by asking and by making mistakes. But I hate learning from mistakes... The feeling of making mistakes and kena tegur is awful... Moreover, life's at stake!!!

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

I paling hate the "only-experience-can-tell" part... It renders me helpless...

I wish the FRPs could guide us (PRP) more. They are nice and friendly. I am glad to have them. The only thing is that, they know the PRP are incompetent and lack essential knowledge, but they seemed to take no action about it leh. They always look very busy. So I didn't even dare to bother them with my stupiak questions. Was hoping that maybe one day when they are free they would teach.

But know what? I saw one of them playing Bejeweled-look-alike game in the resting room today... (-__-") Maybe just taking a short break after a long stressful day ba... Hmm...Dunno leh... Hope I would learn more as time goes by le...

Anyway, am lazy to continue this super long post liao.. Haha.. I'm OK dy le.. I will jia you de.. The passion is still there. I will make sure I work very hard de. I promised myself to be a good pharmacist already. So I must thrive to achieve it!! Let's work towards our targets ba, all IMU-Mpharm-graduated PRPs!!!!! HEK!!!!! =)

P/S. I super agree with Ming in hating IMU. But I'm more specific lah. I only hate IMU Mpharm program coordinators. Think Bpharm is quite OK lah...

LONG LIVE OBAMA!!!!!!

Congratulations on ur landslide victory!!!!! YAY!!!!! ^O^

Amateur Pharmacist

OK. Gotta cut long story short. Super tired.

Woke up at 430a.m. Travelled to JB. Arrived in Wisma Persekutuan. Took form & completed within 5mins. Done. Rushed 2 Menara Sarawak immediately. Apparently Menara Sarawak has been renamed as Menara Cyberport liao.

Only 9 of us today. Got one super outspoken Malay Gal from University of London. With accent! Cheh wah! Was late but challenged Head of Dep when tegur-ed for the wrongly stated building name. "U all SHOULD change the address". Wah...

All were assigned to the desired hosp. Happy! Small batch no competitor ma.

Oh ya. Ja Yee and Chew Yee din lapor. Appealed.

Rushed back to BP when everything was done. Reported at Hosp. Batu Pahat together with Pei Fong. Attempted 3 times only managed to park into a spacious parking lot. Shit.

Person in charged not around. Head of Pharmacy on leave for the day. Waited & waited while chatting. Finally at 420p.m. got the forms and started filling in. Handed in docs after that. Super kelam-kabut. Office hour over liao ma.. Finally got everything settled at 530p.m. The akak was pretty nice. =)

Supposed to report at Pharmacy Outpatient Department after filling in forms. But pharmacist all balik rumah dy at that time. So happily went back home. Kaka..

Mum cooked dinner. Yum yum.. But no appetite. Dunno why. Maybe too tired liao.

So tomolo is gonna be the first official working day. Wish me luck ba!! =)

P/S. A bit sien when come to think that I gotta sleep super early later and wake up super super super early (in my standard lah) tomolo morning and have B.R.E.A.D. as breakfast (equivalent to poison in my standard). Life's wonderful... (>_<")